Showing posts with label Grace. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Grace. Show all posts

Monday, April 4, 2011

Leaving Kicking & Screaming

*Sorry I know its been over a week without a post, I have been really sick, never vomited sooo much in my life (Sorry is that to much info?) anyhoooo I'm going away tomorrow for 2 nights so I will be wrapping up this season soon! Sorry guys! :)


Last night was a blast, Zoe and Georgie called some people from the magazine like Minnie, Yasmine, Leigh and some of the freelance girls and guys that I’ve had a fair bit to do with came and Belle, Chelsea, and Lesley to meet us for dinner! AND my sister Grace and her partner Simon, they left baby Harrison at home though :(.

We arrived at the restaurant about 8.30pm, I was completely surprised by everyone that had come, and as far as I was concerned it was just Zoe, Georgie and I, it turns out they’d organised a few of my nearest and dearest to bid me farewell.

“You guys didn’t have to do this!” I said embracing them both with tears in my eyes.

“We had to do something special for you; we’re not seeing you for 3 months.” Georgie said also getting teary, we had a group hug and then it was time for us to greet all the guests.

Grace and I were bouncing around to; she was wearing this beautiful short dress she’d actually lost most of her baby weight already, and Simon was looking really happy but exhausted, Yasmine was about 7 months gone now so Grace and her spent a lot of time talking about baby business. My sister was beaming, motherhood suited her, she was glowing and Simon was watching her with the biggest smile.

It was great to see everyone I loved under one roof, we were all dancing and drinking and I was having an amazing time. Eventually people started clearing out but some of the Radiance girls and Georgie, Grace, Zoe and I kept on dancing for most of the night and well into the next day. Danny even made a little appearance but the coaches are kicking the teams butts in training, I guess it’s cause its nearing finals time and they need to get practicing their old strategy now Nathans back.

I realised how much I was going to miss these girls, I’ve always been a girl that’s blessed with many friends, most great, but this group, well it the thought of leaving them and my job and my general comforts makes me feel physically ill, and on top of all that leaving my brand new baby nephew, who’d I only met a handful of times anyway was going to be tough.

“Are you all packed and ready?” Grace asked, we were taking a break from out dancathon.

“I’m packed, and I’m ready I guess.” I smiled.

“You guess?” She asked.

“Things are a little complicated. I wish I just had some closure, I’m referring to Nathan.”

“No shit Sherlock, are you going to see him before you leave?” Grace asked lightly.

“I can’t decide, in a way I want to so bad, but then again it would be nice just to go to Paris and be completely free of everything.”

“Will you really be free of everything if you don’t talk to him?” Grace asked.

I hesitated for a second and Grace jumped in.

“You’re a big scaredy cat Paris Lorre, it sucks you were hurt by him but now you too afraid to the mess you both made, clearly Nathan was wrong but you’re not any better by not giving him a chance to explain himself. The boy wants to talk to you, don’t be so freakin’ stubborn and at the very least hear him out.” She finished breathless gave me a kiss on the cheek and went back to dancing. She certainly told me.

With that I decided to take a breath of fresh air outside and do what I had been putting off all night. I had to listen to the voicemail Nathan had left me…

“Paris, I know you don’t want to talk to me. But you can’t leave the country without letting me explain, I know I’m an ass and don’t deserve it but I NEED to talk to you.” He finished.

The desperation in his voice was evident, he was hurting but so was I, so why do I always have to be the bigger person, why couldn’t I kick and scream and refuse to do what EVERYONE expected me to do?

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

How Could I be So Naive?

*Thanks for the lovely birthday messagages! :D Also 24 followers!!!!!! YAY

Work was interesting today, after taking Friday off I had lots to catch up on, so I got to work very, very early.

“Good morning Paris, you here very early.” Minnie said as she walked in to her office and dumped the hundreds of pieces of paper she had, and walked back out to chat to me.

“I thought I should be after taking Friday off.” I smiled.

“Oh yes, and how is your gorgeous new nephew?” She asked.

“His beautiful, seriously I’m in love with him.” I said.

“I would love to see some pictures soon.” She winked as she walked into her office. I had heaps of photos of him, but Grace and Simon had yet to choose a name, she was leaving the hospital today so they had to come with something, I think they might name him Harrison, which I love! Oh well guess we’ll soon find out.

The rest of the morning I was very productive, Brett and I made awkward small talk while he was waiting for a meeting with Minnie. We hadn’t really spoken since the night he stayed late and I think he knew that Nathan wasn’t exactly comfortable with us being friends, I know that I told Nathan I would still be friends with Brett but it didn’t really feel right, not after our fight which we still haven’t really talked about. Zoe came in about an hour late looking terrible, she had a hangover and looked like she was about to vomit.

“Zoe what’s going on?” I asked her when we were out to lunch.

“What do you mean?” She asked.

“Well you have a hangover and it’s a Monday, how are you dealing with your breakup?” I asked.

Zoe sighed before speaking, “I saw him yesterday...hence the massive Monday morning hangover.”

“I knew it, Zoe. Where did you see him?” I asked.

“At my apartment...” She sighed.

“Did you have break up sex?” I asked my tone light but I knew the answer I would get.

“Yes, not just once either...” She whined. “I don’t know what I’m doing Paris, I break up him and he calls me and then we have sex, seriously it’s like where in the exact same position we were before we broke up its just there is no commitment.”

“Zoe you have to work out what you want from him.” I said.

“I know, I know it’s not a smart idea to keep going the way we are.” She said miserably.

Suddenly we became aware of a dark shadow standing at the end of the table, it was Brett.

“Hey Brett.” I said attempting to be friendly.

“Hey Paris, Zoe.” He smiled.

“Sorry to interrupt your lunch but can I have a chat to you Paris?” He asked carefully.

I hesitated but Zoe interrupted, “I have to go back to work anyway, I’ll see you both there.”

Brett sat down filling Zoe’s place.

“So what have you been up to?” I asked.

“Paris, why have you been avoiding me?” He asked directly.

“...I haven’t. Ok that’s a lie, I have. I am going to be completely honest with you, Nathan wasn’t exactly impressed with our behaviour at the dinner party, so I thought best to give us some space.”

“I knew he wouldn’t like me after that night...” Brett said a little mysteriously.

“Why?” I asked.

“Well we were flirting like mad, look Paris anyone can see there is something between us.” He said looking at me directly in the eyes.

“Brett, no. Let me make this perfectly clear, I love Nathan, he is the only person I want to be with, I’m sorry if I gave you the wrong idea it wasn’t my intention at all.

“I think you need to open your eyes Paris, I can’t see you and Nathan lasting much longer, don’t you realise what a fantasy this is? Dating a famous football player, who you have described sweet and funny and gets along with your friends, his playing you Paris and you’re just too infatuated to see it. Soon you’ll see, and hopefully you haven’t left it to long for us to be something.” He said with confidence that made me want to slap his across the head and throw my drink on him.

“You don’t know the first thing about Nathan, and honestly even if we need break up, there is no chance of you and I being anything more than colleagues, I would appreciate if we didn’t speak unless work related.” I said as I snatched my hand bag from the chair next to me and walked out without a second glance at Brett.

I knew Brett’s type, hell I’d written articles about Brett’s type. He was the kind of guy that thought of every girl as a challenge, and if he hadn’t hooked up with her he’d lost the game. He was the guy that went after girls with boyfriends to make his life a little more interesting, I just wish I had figured it out sooner...

Monday, October 11, 2010

Hard Labour

*Hey everyone, I apologise for the next couple of posts, I'm not entirely happy the next couple of posts but I needed to tie up some lose ends before I really get into the story! Wooohoo! Also its my birthday today! Yay! (Sorry again)

Nathan and I got to the hospital in record time, when we got there let’s just say, it wasn’t pretty. We practically ran into the room and Nathan walked straight back out again, without saying anything. Grace’s legs were up in the air and the midwife was checking how far dilated she was, I’m not going to lie childbirth is far from pleasant, and seriously the only beautiful thing that came out of the horrid experience was my brand new nephew.

“PARIS, I’m so happy you here, please lord, help me!” Grace bellowed from the bed.

“Hey guys how’s everything going? What can I do?” I asked.

“I’m going to get us some drinks, coffee Paris?” Simon asked obviously needed a little break from his wife who was in extreme pain. I think sometimes people forget about what the man goes through during his wife’s labour, like their instinct is to protect his wife or girlfriend and their lying in front of them is her screaming in pain and they can do absolutely nothing besides holding their hand.

Anyway enough of my poor daddies rant, my nephew is gorgeous, he was so alert and has these beautiful big blue eyes and oh I started balling my eyes out when he was handed to me. It’s like something took over Grace when she was actually pushing, like a sudden calm fell over the room and she looked so in love with Simon at the moment, and then he was here, my little nephew was in the world.

Nathan came into the room; he walked in carefully after his previous traumatic experience of seeing my poor sister with a doctor between her legs, I tried to explain that it got a lot worse after he left but he refused to listen to me. Nathan didn’t want to hold him he was to afraid of ‘breaking him’, but eventually I convinced him and I could see Nate falling in love with him like I had only minutes before.

Soon enough the nurses decided there were too many people in the room,
Nathan and I were tired so we decided to go back to my parents house and catch a few hours sleep.

We snuggled into my childhood bedroom, talking about everything.

“So this is your childhood bedroom hey?” He said as we were spooning in my single bed.

“It is.” I answered.

“So have you ever had any boys in this bed before?” He asked nuzzling my neck.

I had actually had another boy in here before but I decided to tell a little white lie,

“Nope, you’re the first.”

“Your totally lying right now aren’t you?” He asked, his hands travelling dangerously high up my thigh.

“Ok I did lie, but you’re the only sexy footballer that’s been in my bed.” I answered.

“Good.” He said pulling my shoulder towards him, so I was facing him, his lips hovering above mine.

“How can you be in the mood after today?” I asked my hands resting on his shoulders.

“I just think after seeing that, we should practise completely safe sex.” He joked.

Friday, October 8, 2010

Maybe Baby?

I got to talk to my mum today! It’s been a while, she’s in Ireland at the moment, she loves it apparently so does Ray, there not due back for another month, but mum was even talking about extending the trip, which is exciting for her, she rarely does things for herself so I’m glad she’s having an amazing time. I told mum about the internship in Paris, she didn’t try to give me advice she just listened to my complaining and my excitement about the offer.

Just after I hung up from mum I got a call from a very nervous Simon.

“Paris, Grace’s water just broke...”He said in a panic, I could hear him rushing around his house and Grace in the background telling him to slow down.

“Really? That’s so exciting! I’ll drive down tonight, is that ok?” I asked excitedly.

“Hurry up, she’s insisting your there for the delivery, I need you Paris, we can’t do this alone.” He begged.

“I’ll be there as soon as I can, I promise.” I said running around my apartment trying to pack a bag for a couple of nights, if I left tonight I would only have to take one day off work and then I could spend the weekend with them.

I had to call Nathan let him know I was leaving.

“Hey pretty lady, are you coming over tonight.” Nathan said his voice all low and sexy when he answered his phone.

“Hmm tempting but no, I’m going back home Grace is in labour!” I said excitedly.

“Really? Argh that’s exciting!” He replied.

“Yes, yes I know! Well I better go, but I’ll call you when I get to the hospital!” I said.

“Hmm ok...Paris; do you maybe want some company?” He asked carefully.

“Really? Are you sure you can miss training?”

“I’d only really miss one...but if you don’t want me to come I understand.” He asked a little quietly.

“No I really want you to come! Woohoo road trip!” I said laughing.

“Cool do want me to drive, I can pick you up in like half an hour?” He said.

“Awesome well I’ll see you soon, I love you.”I said hanging up and packing the clothes I had chucked on my bag.

Exactly 30 minutes my doorbell rang, Nathan was there looking so handsome, and Audrey was close behind him, I gave Nate a quick kiss and turned my attention to my roommate.

“Audrey, I haven’t seen you in so long!” I said pulling her in for a kiss on the cheek.

“I know, Nathan filled me in on the baby situation, will catch up when you get back.” She said giving me a wink.

“Ok!”
Nate grabbed my bag and pulled me in for a kiss.

“Hey Aunty Paris!” He said laughing.

“Hello my beautiful, sexy, sweet boyfriend, I’m so happy your coming.” I said practically jumping on him from excitement.

“I’m happy I’m coming to, come on we have to hurry.” He said rushing my out the front door, Audrey laughing at us.

We were on the road and only made one stop for food, mostly lollies and chocolate it’s really not a road trip without junk food.

“So when does Danny move in?” I asked moving closer to Nate my hand sitting on his thigh.

“I think his moving some stuff in tomorrow, but he’s already claimed the spare bedroom.” Nate explained.

“You happy about having your space invaded?” I asked.

“It’ll be good to have a friend living with me for a while, it’s not forever.”

“Good I’m glad you’re happy.” I smiled.

“So what’s going on with you and Audrey?” He asked curiously.

“Nothing why?” I asked genuinely confused.

“It’s just she seemed a little cold at the apartment, I don’t know.” He
said stealing a quick glance at me.

“It’s been a little weird lately, I don’t know, we’ll talk about it when we get home.” I said.

“Good plan, you should get some sleep before we get there, it might be a long night.” Nate said.

“You’re so sweet Nathan Luken.” I said leaning on his shoulder and falling asleep almost straight away.

To be continued...

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Meet and Greet

“PARIS...Nathan is here! Answer the door!” Grace bellowed from my room where she was staying.

“I know! I am coming.” I yelled back.

I ran to the door in my silver sparkly dress that I didn’t actually wear the night Nathan and I had sex for the first time, and I wanted to show it off.

“Hey, hmm you look nice.” I said as I opened the door, he was wearing a nice trendy blue shirt, and some light wash jeans.

“The same could be said about you...have I seen that dress before?” He asked casually.

“You have...briefly.” I said giving him a look.

“Oh I remember.” He said pulling me in for a kiss.

We made out like teenagers for about 2 minutes before I was snapped back into reality.

“Uh Paris?” Grace said.

Nathan’s face was deer-caught-in-headlights, I am pretty sure my face matched his.

“Hi, you must be Grace. I’m uh Nathan.” He said stepping forward.

“Hi...I’m so happy to meet you. Seriously can’t wait for the footy season to start...Your team is expected to make it too the top ten.”

“Nice to meet you to, I can’t wait either, getting pretty boring at home you know.” He said with a smile.

“Ok, everybody ready to go? We got dinner reservations in like 15 minutes.” I said.
Dinner was nice, there were no awkward silences. Although the waitress was flirting like mad with Nathan AGAIN, hmph. Anyway, we all fun and talked and Nathan was asked had question after question from Grace and Simon.

“You guys don’t feel bad, seriously just take my bed. I’m not going to have my pregnant sister sleeping on the pull-out.” I said.

“Fine, but I’m buying you both breakfast tomorrow.” Grace said, sticking out her tongue and walking into my room, closing the door.

“Please stay tonight, it will be like a little sleepover.” I asked.

“Ok as long as we can have a naked pillow fight.” He said, his tone teasing.

“Well it wouldn’t be a real sleepover without a naked pillow fight.”

Breakfast went well and Nate and I said goodbye to them. I got a little teary as they left and Nathan pulled me into a big hug and kissed my forehead, and told me it will be ok. I know I have said this a lot but God this boy is sweet.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Invitation

Sorry for the really short post! I wrote this post in a hurry, because I just found out my brother’s son was born today! Wooohoo! I’m an aunt for the third time. Oh and I will have an extra post this week, either Saturday or Sunday so watch out.

Grace and Simon decided to come up to Sydney for the night. Grace was getting really big, and she was getting very sick of being pregnant. I think Simon is getting sick of it to; she was pretty moody with him,but he just takes it, his really excited to be a dad. I really couldn't’t decide if I should invite Nathan for dinner of not, but Grace REALLY wanted to meet him, so I decided just to ask him.

“Hey babe, how are you?”I asked.

“I am so freakin’ bored!” He groaned. “Tell me your home soon to distract me for a while.”

“I will be, but there is something I wanted to ask you...But just tell me if you don’t want to, ok. Seriously no press-” I was rambling.

“Paris, what is it?” He asked gently.

“Did you want to maybe come to dinner with my sister and her husband she’s in town for the weekend?” I asked.

“You were nervous to ask me that? Of course I will come to dinner.”

“Like you weren’t nervous to ask me to the wedding.” I scoffed.

“Fair enough, I was nervous. Happy?” He laughed.

“I am, thank you, ok I have got to get back to work, but did you want to meet at my apartment at like 7?

“7 is good. I’ll cya then?

“See ya then.”

I got home just after 6 and told Grace that Nathan was coming; she scolded me for not telling her earlier. She started running around the house getting ready, leaving a mess in her path. Simon started getting nervous, because he is meeting ‘somebody famous’. I really hope this goes well; I have to go get ready, because I think I just heard a knock at the door.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Families

*Short post I know, I promise I will try to make them longer!

On Saturday I spontaneously to go home for the night, it was only about a three hour drive from Sydney and I hadn’t been home in a while and thought it was about time for a visit.

I went straight over to my sister’s house, I hadn’t seen her in about two months and she was entering her sixth month of pregnancy and according to my brother in law was becoming quite unpleasant with the pregnancy hormones raging through her body.
Grace and I were always close; she is two years older than me, she was married at 22 and fell pregnant at 24, Grace and Simon were high school sweethearts. My mum wasn’t particularly fond of the idea of her marrying so young, but she accepted it and her and Simon really do love each other.

Grace and I had a blast, we went shopping for some baby clothes, and she asked about the boys in my life I told her about Nathan, she and Simon followed football avidly and she knew all about him.

“Woah you left here like 3 months ago and already dating a football star...”

“I am not dating him! He has some issues he has to work out.”

“Ok, sorry not dating almost had sex with, has almost nightly conversations with AND is breaking up ‘officially’ with his girlfriend to maybe have a shot at a relationship with you.”

“Shut up; let’s go see mum and Ray.

So that’s what we did, mum and Ray are going to Europe on Tuesday travelling everywhere. Mum had been before, but this time they were doing it style. In my mind my trip home was spontaneous, but in mum and Rays mind this was a thoughtful goodbye which I had been planning for ages...

Everyone took turns at good-naturedly poking fun at me about Nate and my articles in Radiance. Mum had collected all of them so far; I decided I probably wouldn’t tell her about my upcoming debut in the sex section of the magazine.
We went out for dinner and had a lovely time, it was nice to be home I hadn’t realised how much I had missed everyone.

On Sunday I went home, I made mum and Ray promise to take a picture of every sign of the new city, I had so many pictures from when I went overseas I got a massive memory board and put all the photos on it!

I was so to be home on my own, but Audrey and I ended up watching movies and having girl time and soon enough Sydney felt like my home again.