Today’s the day it happens. Today’s the day I throw my life in to turmoil for the prospect of something different. The city of romance and art, good things happen in Paris. It’s just a cab ride, 22 hour flight with a short stop off in Singapore and another cab and I’m home for the next 3 months. I really don’t know what emotion is more powerful, the excitement or the utter fear that’s pumping through my body. I wasn’t a virgin to this travelling thing, I’d done it lots before even for longer period of time but something in me was fighting this particular adventure and it was getting hard to ignore.
“I’m going to miss you so much.” Georgie said giving me a massive hug.
“I’m going to miss you too.” I said getting teary.
Zoe was soon to quickly jump in for a hug and a quick pep talk in my ear.
I asked them both not to come to the airport with me, I probably wouldn’t have gotten on the plane if they insisted on coming with me, I already felt the tears brimming.
“Now I only want you to think about us when you send us our daily emails, our twice weekly skype sessions and weekly phones calls!” Zoe said.
I laughed out loud and just as quickly I began crying, “I…I don’t want to go.” I sobbed, I was close to having a full blown mental attack, Zoe and Georgie shared a look of, WTF do we do?
“I’m sorry, yes I do want to go. I’m being ridiculous. I’m beyond excited.” I said, it sounded like I was trying to convince myself of something I wasn’t sure of. Like when you know you need to wash your hair but convince yourself one more day of dry shampoo will be fine, and its totally not.
The cab ride was exhausting I was balling my eyes out, it probably didn’t that I was in the middle of major PMS. Nathan was also in the forefront of my mind, I couldn’t help but replay our relationship in my head, the happy times, the sad times, the special times, it was all getting to much.
The cab driver was watching my break down from the mirror, “are you ok miss?” He asked multiple times, I’d reply with the same bland response, “I’m fine, I’m sorry I’m such a mess.”
I checked into my flight avoiding any major dramas, the girl that was checking me in did a double take at me, I guess the red swollen eyes alerted her to me. Go figure.
Just as I was about to walk through customs an officer waiting at the beginning of the line tapped me on the shoulder and asked me to follow him, thoughts raced through my head, what had I done wrong? I’d been in the fricken line minding my own business.
“Just go back out there miss theres somebody waiting for you, and don’t look so panicked you’re not in trouble.” He said customs officers with a wink and a smile.
“Um so what exactly is the problem? I have a plane to catch to Paris.” I said bewildered.
“I’m sure it wont take long, just trust me and go out there.” He said nicely but quite firmly.
I agreed and walked outside where none other then Nathan was waiting, with a bunch of fake roses.
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Monday, April 4, 2011
Leaving Kicking & Screaming
*Sorry I know its been over a week without a post, I have been really sick, never vomited sooo much in my life (Sorry is that to much info?) anyhoooo I'm going away tomorrow for 2 nights so I will be wrapping up this season soon! Sorry guys! :)
Last night was a blast, Zoe and Georgie called some people from the magazine like Minnie, Yasmine, Leigh and some of the freelance girls and guys that I’ve had a fair bit to do with came and Belle, Chelsea, and Lesley to meet us for dinner! AND my sister Grace and her partner Simon, they left baby Harrison at home though :(.
We arrived at the restaurant about 8.30pm, I was completely surprised by everyone that had come, and as far as I was concerned it was just Zoe, Georgie and I, it turns out they’d organised a few of my nearest and dearest to bid me farewell.
“You guys didn’t have to do this!” I said embracing them both with tears in my eyes.
“We had to do something special for you; we’re not seeing you for 3 months.” Georgie said also getting teary, we had a group hug and then it was time for us to greet all the guests.
Grace and I were bouncing around to; she was wearing this beautiful short dress she’d actually lost most of her baby weight already, and Simon was looking really happy but exhausted, Yasmine was about 7 months gone now so Grace and her spent a lot of time talking about baby business. My sister was beaming, motherhood suited her, she was glowing and Simon was watching her with the biggest smile.
It was great to see everyone I loved under one roof, we were all dancing and drinking and I was having an amazing time. Eventually people started clearing out but some of the Radiance girls and Georgie, Grace, Zoe and I kept on dancing for most of the night and well into the next day. Danny even made a little appearance but the coaches are kicking the teams butts in training, I guess it’s cause its nearing finals time and they need to get practicing their old strategy now Nathans back.
I realised how much I was going to miss these girls, I’ve always been a girl that’s blessed with many friends, most great, but this group, well it the thought of leaving them and my job and my general comforts makes me feel physically ill, and on top of all that leaving my brand new baby nephew, who’d I only met a handful of times anyway was going to be tough.
“Are you all packed and ready?” Grace asked, we were taking a break from out dancathon.
“I’m packed, and I’m ready I guess.” I smiled.
“You guess?” She asked.
“Things are a little complicated. I wish I just had some closure, I’m referring to Nathan.”
“No shit Sherlock, are you going to see him before you leave?” Grace asked lightly.
“I can’t decide, in a way I want to so bad, but then again it would be nice just to go to Paris and be completely free of everything.”
“Will you really be free of everything if you don’t talk to him?” Grace asked.
I hesitated for a second and Grace jumped in.
“You’re a big scaredy cat Paris Lorre, it sucks you were hurt by him but now you too afraid to the mess you both made, clearly Nathan was wrong but you’re not any better by not giving him a chance to explain himself. The boy wants to talk to you, don’t be so freakin’ stubborn and at the very least hear him out.” She finished breathless gave me a kiss on the cheek and went back to dancing. She certainly told me.
With that I decided to take a breath of fresh air outside and do what I had been putting off all night. I had to listen to the voicemail Nathan had left me…
“Paris, I know you don’t want to talk to me. But you can’t leave the country without letting me explain, I know I’m an ass and don’t deserve it but I NEED to talk to you.” He finished.
The desperation in his voice was evident, he was hurting but so was I, so why do I always have to be the bigger person, why couldn’t I kick and scream and refuse to do what EVERYONE expected me to do?
Last night was a blast, Zoe and Georgie called some people from the magazine like Minnie, Yasmine, Leigh and some of the freelance girls and guys that I’ve had a fair bit to do with came and Belle, Chelsea, and Lesley to meet us for dinner! AND my sister Grace and her partner Simon, they left baby Harrison at home though :(.
We arrived at the restaurant about 8.30pm, I was completely surprised by everyone that had come, and as far as I was concerned it was just Zoe, Georgie and I, it turns out they’d organised a few of my nearest and dearest to bid me farewell.
“You guys didn’t have to do this!” I said embracing them both with tears in my eyes.
“We had to do something special for you; we’re not seeing you for 3 months.” Georgie said also getting teary, we had a group hug and then it was time for us to greet all the guests.
Grace and I were bouncing around to; she was wearing this beautiful short dress she’d actually lost most of her baby weight already, and Simon was looking really happy but exhausted, Yasmine was about 7 months gone now so Grace and her spent a lot of time talking about baby business. My sister was beaming, motherhood suited her, she was glowing and Simon was watching her with the biggest smile.
It was great to see everyone I loved under one roof, we were all dancing and drinking and I was having an amazing time. Eventually people started clearing out but some of the Radiance girls and Georgie, Grace, Zoe and I kept on dancing for most of the night and well into the next day. Danny even made a little appearance but the coaches are kicking the teams butts in training, I guess it’s cause its nearing finals time and they need to get practicing their old strategy now Nathans back.
I realised how much I was going to miss these girls, I’ve always been a girl that’s blessed with many friends, most great, but this group, well it the thought of leaving them and my job and my general comforts makes me feel physically ill, and on top of all that leaving my brand new baby nephew, who’d I only met a handful of times anyway was going to be tough.
“Are you all packed and ready?” Grace asked, we were taking a break from out dancathon.
“I’m packed, and I’m ready I guess.” I smiled.
“You guess?” She asked.
“Things are a little complicated. I wish I just had some closure, I’m referring to Nathan.”
“No shit Sherlock, are you going to see him before you leave?” Grace asked lightly.
“I can’t decide, in a way I want to so bad, but then again it would be nice just to go to Paris and be completely free of everything.”
“Will you really be free of everything if you don’t talk to him?” Grace asked.
I hesitated for a second and Grace jumped in.
“You’re a big scaredy cat Paris Lorre, it sucks you were hurt by him but now you too afraid to the mess you both made, clearly Nathan was wrong but you’re not any better by not giving him a chance to explain himself. The boy wants to talk to you, don’t be so freakin’ stubborn and at the very least hear him out.” She finished breathless gave me a kiss on the cheek and went back to dancing. She certainly told me.
With that I decided to take a breath of fresh air outside and do what I had been putting off all night. I had to listen to the voicemail Nathan had left me…
“Paris, I know you don’t want to talk to me. But you can’t leave the country without letting me explain, I know I’m an ass and don’t deserve it but I NEED to talk to you.” He finished.
The desperation in his voice was evident, he was hurting but so was I, so why do I always have to be the bigger person, why couldn’t I kick and scream and refuse to do what EVERYONE expected me to do?
Sunday, March 27, 2011
2 Weeks Later
“I can’t believe your leaving in two days.” Georgie said, she was sitting on my bed ‘helping’ me pack.
“I know, it’s gone so fast.” I said.
“As long as it only for three months!” Zoe bargained, she was also ‘helping’.
“It is only three months, I promise.” I soothed.
“Ok, it’s settled we’re going out tonight, all of us.” Georgie said.
“Nah, I’ve got too much to do tonight.”
“No, where going out! It doesn’t have to be a late one, just a fun one!” Zoe encouraged.
“Just no.”I said laughing, I was vaguely aware that they were going to win.
“OK, it’s settled we will be leaving here at like 8 for dinner, does that work for you Zoe?” Georgie asked, sending multiple texts from her phone.
“Yeah, that gives us, what? Like 3 hours to sort ourselves out.” Zoe answered.
“Do I get any say in this?” I whined from the corner.
“No you don’t.” Georgie answered. “Alright, well you can just borrow one of my dresses, saves you going home.” She finished addressing Zoe.
“Ooo good idea, let’s go have a look in your cupboard.”
“Guys I don-” that’s as far as I got in my protests, they were already talking over me and planning our nights adventures.
I continued to pack for a while, when I realised that it was a little too quiet between Zoe and Georgie, so I tip toed down the hallway to see what was going on...
“She’s not doing too well is she?”I heard Zoe ask.
“No, you should have seen it at Lesley’s house, she was shattered...he was too, but his a fine actor when need be.”
“Yeah, she didn’t really talk about it.” Zoe said.
“He needs to talk to her before she leaves.”
“I know, but I doubt she’s going to want to talk to him, and would he even want to talk to her?”
“Yeah, he does, well that’s what he said, he just doesn’t know how.” Georgie said.
“Well how are we going to organise it?” Zoe asked.
“You aren’t.” I said with venom in my voice that made them both jump. “I don’t want to see him, I’m sorry but you two are way out of line, I can’t see him, do you understand that? I CANT.” I finished off yelling and walking out of the room.
“Paris...wait, hold on.” I heard Georgie call out after me but it was too late I was already out the door.
I was walking down the stairs when I banged into someone, “I’m sorry, excuse me.” I muttered.
“Paris?” None other than Nathan Luken questioned me.
I sighed “I can’t do this Nathan, please just leave it.” I said as I walked away.
“Paris...” I heard him finish desperately.
“I know, it’s gone so fast.” I said.
“As long as it only for three months!” Zoe bargained, she was also ‘helping’.
“It is only three months, I promise.” I soothed.
“Ok, it’s settled we’re going out tonight, all of us.” Georgie said.
“Nah, I’ve got too much to do tonight.”
“No, where going out! It doesn’t have to be a late one, just a fun one!” Zoe encouraged.
“Just no.”I said laughing, I was vaguely aware that they were going to win.
“OK, it’s settled we will be leaving here at like 8 for dinner, does that work for you Zoe?” Georgie asked, sending multiple texts from her phone.
“Yeah, that gives us, what? Like 3 hours to sort ourselves out.” Zoe answered.
“Do I get any say in this?” I whined from the corner.
“No you don’t.” Georgie answered. “Alright, well you can just borrow one of my dresses, saves you going home.” She finished addressing Zoe.
“Ooo good idea, let’s go have a look in your cupboard.”
“Guys I don-” that’s as far as I got in my protests, they were already talking over me and planning our nights adventures.
I continued to pack for a while, when I realised that it was a little too quiet between Zoe and Georgie, so I tip toed down the hallway to see what was going on...
“She’s not doing too well is she?”I heard Zoe ask.
“No, you should have seen it at Lesley’s house, she was shattered...he was too, but his a fine actor when need be.”
“Yeah, she didn’t really talk about it.” Zoe said.
“He needs to talk to her before she leaves.”
“I know, but I doubt she’s going to want to talk to him, and would he even want to talk to her?”
“Yeah, he does, well that’s what he said, he just doesn’t know how.” Georgie said.
“Well how are we going to organise it?” Zoe asked.
“You aren’t.” I said with venom in my voice that made them both jump. “I don’t want to see him, I’m sorry but you two are way out of line, I can’t see him, do you understand that? I CANT.” I finished off yelling and walking out of the room.
“Paris...wait, hold on.” I heard Georgie call out after me but it was too late I was already out the door.
I was walking down the stairs when I banged into someone, “I’m sorry, excuse me.” I muttered.
“Paris?” None other than Nathan Luken questioned me.
I sighed “I can’t do this Nathan, please just leave it.” I said as I walked away.
“Paris...” I heard him finish desperately.
Friday, March 18, 2011
The Reunion To Postpone
“What are you doing here?”Nathan said getting out of the car when he finally spotted me.
I made a move to walk to Georgie’s car of course he blocked my path.
“Nathan please, just move.” I said.
“You’re at my house, why?” He asked.
“Nathan just leave it.” Georgie interrupted.
“No I want to talk to Paris.” He said, so Leslie ushered Georgie inside, they didn’t do anything about the bitch in the Nathan’s front seat.
“Paris, you shouldn’t be here.” Nathan said.
“I know, I’m sorry, I’m leaving.”
“You can’t just fuck me over and then hang out with my family.”
“Fuck you over?” I repeated.
“Yeah.” He said, so I deliberately looked towards Becky in his front seat.
“Don’t give me that, I’m single now.” He said with venom in his voice.
“I know, I just think that maybe you forgot you were in a relationship when you actually were.”
“No, you were there reminding me every step of the way...” He said.
“Right it’s all my fault...” I said with a bit of bite to my voice.
“You left me, I honestly don’t know why your here.”
“Me either...just let me go, please.” I pleaded.
He must have saw the desperation on my face because suddenly he looked as sad as I felt.
“I’m sorry; I’m being an ass...I just don’t get why we couldn’t work our shit out.” He said his voice lowering towards the end of the sentence and he kicked some imaginary dirt on the ground.
“You seem to be moving on just fine.” I said once again looking pointedly at Becky.
He looked back at her and then towards me...
“You made your choice Nathan.” I said waving for Georgie to come out, she was watching the scene ‘stealthily’ behind the curtain in Lesley’s living room.
I turned around and started walking towards Georgie’s car, Nathans grabbed my wrist, by the time I turned to face him, he’d already rethought his decision and was signalling for Becky to come inside.
I made a move to walk to Georgie’s car of course he blocked my path.
“Nathan please, just move.” I said.
“You’re at my house, why?” He asked.
“Nathan just leave it.” Georgie interrupted.
“No I want to talk to Paris.” He said, so Leslie ushered Georgie inside, they didn’t do anything about the bitch in the Nathan’s front seat.
“Paris, you shouldn’t be here.” Nathan said.
“I know, I’m sorry, I’m leaving.”
“You can’t just fuck me over and then hang out with my family.”
“Fuck you over?” I repeated.
“Yeah.” He said, so I deliberately looked towards Becky in his front seat.
“Don’t give me that, I’m single now.” He said with venom in his voice.
“I know, I just think that maybe you forgot you were in a relationship when you actually were.”
“No, you were there reminding me every step of the way...” He said.
“Right it’s all my fault...” I said with a bit of bite to my voice.
“You left me, I honestly don’t know why your here.”
“Me either...just let me go, please.” I pleaded.
He must have saw the desperation on my face because suddenly he looked as sad as I felt.
“I’m sorry; I’m being an ass...I just don’t get why we couldn’t work our shit out.” He said his voice lowering towards the end of the sentence and he kicked some imaginary dirt on the ground.
“You seem to be moving on just fine.” I said once again looking pointedly at Becky.
He looked back at her and then towards me...
“You made your choice Nathan.” I said waving for Georgie to come out, she was watching the scene ‘stealthily’ behind the curtain in Lesley’s living room.
I turned around and started walking towards Georgie’s car, Nathans grabbed my wrist, by the time I turned to face him, he’d already rethought his decision and was signalling for Becky to come inside.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Day 12
“Please come?” Georgie begged, it was day twelve since the break-up and Georgie was trying to convince me to go down to Leslies house to pick up her photo albums, we are decorating the spare room and she wanted to put some photos and things up.
“Noo, how awkward would it be if I went.”
“They still like you, we’re friends aren’t we.”
“Nah Georgie I think I’ll just stay here...” I said, not only could I use the time alone, I really wanted to finish clearing out Nathans things from my room.
“Come on, I helped you clean the majority of Nate’s stuff out.” She bargained.
“FINE, but if it’s awkward you have to talk more, fill any silences.”
“There will be no awkward silences to fill, I promise and plus it’s only for a couple of hours.” She said.
“Ok.” I said, really? Was I really going to my ex-boyfriends families’ house?
The drive there was long, the road was taunting me, and just as I thought we were getting close another long stretch of road was upon us.
“How long left?”
“Ummm like half an hour.” She answered.
I couldn’t help but laugh, “You said that like an hour ago.”
She chuckled back, “Honestly, I have no idea.”
I continued laughing, tears began rolling down my face, I don’t know why I found it so funny, what came next however was a surprise to both of us. The tears of laughed turned to tears, actual big fat tears, finally mourning the loss of a relationship. Georgie pulled over, and quickly hugged me.
“I miss him, so much.” I wailed.
“I know...” She said.
“It feels like I can’t breathe, why wasn’t I strong enough to stay?”
“Hey stop, it’s not your fault, Nathan was the idiot here, you were strong
enough to leave, in my opinion it takes more courage to do that then stay in an unhappy relationship.”
My breathing slowly evened out, “Thank you.”
She shook her head in reply, as if to say don’t worry about it.
“No Georgie, seriously, you didn’t have to stay around me, but you did.”
“You’re my friend Paris, and Nathan was wrong in this instance, even if I don’t like it, I could see it.”
I sobbed a bit more before finally pulling it together.
“Feeling better?” She asked as we were nearing Leslie’s house.
“Much!” I smiled.
We pulled in, seconds later Leslie was at the car practically pulling us both out of the car and hugging us like she hadn’t see us for a decade.
“I’ve missed you girls.” She said, pulling us into a group hug.
“I’ve missed you too.” Georgie and I said in perfect harmony.
“You and me missy need to have a chat.” She winked in my direction, Georgie gave her a look I couldn’t decipher probably trying to give her a warning about my ‘fragile condition’ at the moment.
I smiled in return, before she dragged us inside for a cup of tea.
“So how was the drive?”
“Eh long, but it was fine.” Georgie answered.
“So are you sure you don’t want to stay? I have the guests rooms made up.” Leslie said.
“We would but we both have work tomorrow.” Georgie replied, using our made up excuse.
“It labour day tomorrow...public holiday.” Leslie said with a smile dancing across her lips, “I understand if you don’t feel comfortable here anymore, but trust me Paris, I still love you, and I even though I was a little mad that you broke up with Nathan I understand why you did it.”
What had I done to deserve the company of such awesome people?
“I miss him.” I replied, tears in my eyes, I was very emotional today.
“I know.” Leslie said wrapping her arms around me.
We spent the rest of the day chilling out around the house, I made everyone pancakes but besides that we just talked, and drank lemonade on the porch, it was so lovely to still feel a part of the family and then just as we were leaving things became unpleasant.
Nathan pulled up into the drive way, with none other than Becky in his front seat.
“Noo, how awkward would it be if I went.”
“They still like you, we’re friends aren’t we.”
“Nah Georgie I think I’ll just stay here...” I said, not only could I use the time alone, I really wanted to finish clearing out Nathans things from my room.
“Come on, I helped you clean the majority of Nate’s stuff out.” She bargained.
“FINE, but if it’s awkward you have to talk more, fill any silences.”
“There will be no awkward silences to fill, I promise and plus it’s only for a couple of hours.” She said.
“Ok.” I said, really? Was I really going to my ex-boyfriends families’ house?
The drive there was long, the road was taunting me, and just as I thought we were getting close another long stretch of road was upon us.
“How long left?”
“Ummm like half an hour.” She answered.
I couldn’t help but laugh, “You said that like an hour ago.”
She chuckled back, “Honestly, I have no idea.”
I continued laughing, tears began rolling down my face, I don’t know why I found it so funny, what came next however was a surprise to both of us. The tears of laughed turned to tears, actual big fat tears, finally mourning the loss of a relationship. Georgie pulled over, and quickly hugged me.
“I miss him, so much.” I wailed.
“I know...” She said.
“It feels like I can’t breathe, why wasn’t I strong enough to stay?”
“Hey stop, it’s not your fault, Nathan was the idiot here, you were strong
enough to leave, in my opinion it takes more courage to do that then stay in an unhappy relationship.”
My breathing slowly evened out, “Thank you.”
She shook her head in reply, as if to say don’t worry about it.
“No Georgie, seriously, you didn’t have to stay around me, but you did.”
“You’re my friend Paris, and Nathan was wrong in this instance, even if I don’t like it, I could see it.”
I sobbed a bit more before finally pulling it together.
“Feeling better?” She asked as we were nearing Leslie’s house.
“Much!” I smiled.
We pulled in, seconds later Leslie was at the car practically pulling us both out of the car and hugging us like she hadn’t see us for a decade.
“I’ve missed you girls.” She said, pulling us into a group hug.
“I’ve missed you too.” Georgie and I said in perfect harmony.
“You and me missy need to have a chat.” She winked in my direction, Georgie gave her a look I couldn’t decipher probably trying to give her a warning about my ‘fragile condition’ at the moment.
I smiled in return, before she dragged us inside for a cup of tea.
“So how was the drive?”
“Eh long, but it was fine.” Georgie answered.
“So are you sure you don’t want to stay? I have the guests rooms made up.” Leslie said.
“We would but we both have work tomorrow.” Georgie replied, using our made up excuse.
“It labour day tomorrow...public holiday.” Leslie said with a smile dancing across her lips, “I understand if you don’t feel comfortable here anymore, but trust me Paris, I still love you, and I even though I was a little mad that you broke up with Nathan I understand why you did it.”
What had I done to deserve the company of such awesome people?
“I miss him.” I replied, tears in my eyes, I was very emotional today.
“I know.” Leslie said wrapping her arms around me.
We spent the rest of the day chilling out around the house, I made everyone pancakes but besides that we just talked, and drank lemonade on the porch, it was so lovely to still feel a part of the family and then just as we were leaving things became unpleasant.
Nathan pulled up into the drive way, with none other than Becky in his front seat.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
The Conclusion
I went straight over to Nathans after work, I had this terrible feeling in the pit of my stomach, I had made an ultimatum with myself, if I wasn’t satisfied after a chat then I would end it, I wasn’t sure if I would have the guts to actually go through with it but it was certainly my plan.
I knocked on his front door, waiting for him to answer, I had a speech prepared but I wasn’t sure how much I’d get through but at least I had a plan.
“Hey.” Nathan said as he opened the door.
“Hi.” I smiled back at him.
“What are you doing here?” He asked.
“...um seeing my boyfriend.” I replied.
“Don’t get snappy it was just a question.”
He began walking towards the lounge room, he was in the middle of a movie.
“Nate, can we talk real quick?” I asked.
“Hmm?” He said not looking up from the TV.
“You and Becky seemed awfully cosy the other day.” I said.
He flicked off the TV but still didn’t look at me, “She’s helped me a lot of the last few weeks.”
“Yes, she has. But so have I, and you’ve barely looked at me since the injury, and we definitely aren’t sitting on your bed laughing over youtube videos together.” I said quietly.
He sighed and still wouldn’t meet my eye, “I don’t know what to say, I like Becky and yes you’ve helped me to, I never said you hadn’t, at the moment I’m finding it easier to talk to her.”
“Why?” I asked feeling a flush spread to my face, I was finding it hard to breathe.
“I don’t know.”
“Ok, fine, talk to Becky, I don’t mind, but please don’t let me find you chilling in bed with her like it’s no big deal.” I said with a bit of bite to my voice.
“Grow up Paris, we’re all adults, you should take comfort in the fact that I haven’t slept with anyone since we started going out.”
“’I should take comfort in the fact that you haven’t slept with anyone’, what the hell does that mean?” I nearly shouted.
“It means I’ve been completely faithful, but a lot of people wouldn’t have been in my position.”
“Why, why would you say that?” I asked confused.
He just shook his head.
“Nathan, why are you being a prick? I get it, you broke your knee, it sucks, but you’re going to be playing again soon and everything will be fine.”
“No you don’t get it.” He shouted.
“Fine EXPLAIN IT TO ME.” I yelled back.
“I can’t.” He said so angrily I physically recoiled.
“Ok, well I’m sorry but I can’t be overlooked and forgotten about anymore.”
He half laughed, “So what some more drama Paris, yell, scream maybe?”
“No...I’m done.” I answered.
He shook his head, “Done what? This ridiculous conversation?” He asked turning his attention back to the TV.
“No, us. I’m done; it’s too much for me. Where both not happy and we shouldn’t pretend to be anymore.”
He was quiet for a long time, and for a brief minute he looked ruffled like he was about to beg for forgiveness, he looked like the act he’d been putting on since his injury was fading away, and just as quickly as I saw my Nathan he was gone again.
”Let yourself out.”
That sentence was drawn out with finality that I needed, perhaps we were just the couples that were meant to fall in love but not be together, they world wasn’t ready for Nathan and Paris, or perhaps I wasn’t.
I knocked on his front door, waiting for him to answer, I had a speech prepared but I wasn’t sure how much I’d get through but at least I had a plan.
“Hey.” Nathan said as he opened the door.
“Hi.” I smiled back at him.
“What are you doing here?” He asked.
“...um seeing my boyfriend.” I replied.
“Don’t get snappy it was just a question.”
He began walking towards the lounge room, he was in the middle of a movie.
“Nate, can we talk real quick?” I asked.
“Hmm?” He said not looking up from the TV.
“You and Becky seemed awfully cosy the other day.” I said.
He flicked off the TV but still didn’t look at me, “She’s helped me a lot of the last few weeks.”
“Yes, she has. But so have I, and you’ve barely looked at me since the injury, and we definitely aren’t sitting on your bed laughing over youtube videos together.” I said quietly.
He sighed and still wouldn’t meet my eye, “I don’t know what to say, I like Becky and yes you’ve helped me to, I never said you hadn’t, at the moment I’m finding it easier to talk to her.”
“Why?” I asked feeling a flush spread to my face, I was finding it hard to breathe.
“I don’t know.”
“Ok, fine, talk to Becky, I don’t mind, but please don’t let me find you chilling in bed with her like it’s no big deal.” I said with a bit of bite to my voice.
“Grow up Paris, we’re all adults, you should take comfort in the fact that I haven’t slept with anyone since we started going out.”
“’I should take comfort in the fact that you haven’t slept with anyone’, what the hell does that mean?” I nearly shouted.
“It means I’ve been completely faithful, but a lot of people wouldn’t have been in my position.”
“Why, why would you say that?” I asked confused.
He just shook his head.
“Nathan, why are you being a prick? I get it, you broke your knee, it sucks, but you’re going to be playing again soon and everything will be fine.”
“No you don’t get it.” He shouted.
“Fine EXPLAIN IT TO ME.” I yelled back.
“I can’t.” He said so angrily I physically recoiled.
“Ok, well I’m sorry but I can’t be overlooked and forgotten about anymore.”
He half laughed, “So what some more drama Paris, yell, scream maybe?”
“No...I’m done.” I answered.
He shook his head, “Done what? This ridiculous conversation?” He asked turning his attention back to the TV.
“No, us. I’m done; it’s too much for me. Where both not happy and we shouldn’t pretend to be anymore.”
He was quiet for a long time, and for a brief minute he looked ruffled like he was about to beg for forgiveness, he looked like the act he’d been putting on since his injury was fading away, and just as quickly as I saw my Nathan he was gone again.
”Let yourself out.”
That sentence was drawn out with finality that I needed, perhaps we were just the couples that were meant to fall in love but not be together, they world wasn’t ready for Nathan and Paris, or perhaps I wasn’t.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Unhappy
“Paris, Paris, any comment on the latest on Nathan injury.”
“Paris has Nathan said when he’ll be returning to the game?”
“Paris how’s Nathan feeling about his teams win?”
These were just some of the questions I was asked by the paparazzi, they have been following me for 6 days now, too say I was frustrated was an understatement. I couldn’t even run to the shops because everything took triple the time.
I wish I could just yell the answers at them but instead
I was told by Nathans new PR team that I’m supposed to say nothing. Becky – the main member of the new PR team- has been less then pleasant towards me, yet another thing to deal with. Nathan constant bad mood hasn’t left him yet, I feel so sympathetic to his situation but his been a big asshole especially to me.
“Nathan?” I called from his front door as I let myself in.
He didn’t reply so I just followed the laughing coming from his room, I dumped my stuff in the kitchen and noticed Becky’s handbag sitting on the counter.
“Hey.” I said standing in the doorway taking in the sight before me.
“Hi.” Nathan said briefly looking up from his computer screen where Becky was sitting on his bed next to him looking intently at the screen. Ok call my crazy, call me jealous, but this bitch was sitting on my boyfriend’s bed looking awfully cosy with him, I was less than impressed.
“What’s going on here?” I asked trying to play cool.
“...just watching this youtube clip.” Becky answered sourly, like she wasn’t happy that I was interrupting their ‘moment’.
“Oh cool.” I replied.
“Babe shhhh, we’re almost done.” Nathan said Becky looked oddly proud.
I was fuming my blood was boiling it took everything I had to not run over and step on both of their faces.
“Sorry Nathan, how rude am I being right now?” I said sarcastically walking out of his room.
Nathan sighed and a little smile danced across Becky’s face.
I walked into the kitchen and started putting away the food, about 6 minutes later Becky emerged from his room, and Nathan followed with his crutches soon after.
“Alright well I’ll see you later Nathan, remember you have your final x-rays on Tuesday, will work on getting keeping the photographers away, and if it’s good news -which it will be- we can have a quick press conference on the steps of the hospital.” She said.
“Sounds great Becky thanks heaps for all the support you’ve given me the last 6 weeks.” He said nicely.
“No worries Nate, you’ve been my favourite client.” She winked.
I couldn’t help it my heart was beating uncontrollably fast and before I knew it tears stung my eyes, I quickly turned around and faced the sink, taking a big gulp of water.
“Bye Paris.” I heard Becky calling from the front door.
“Cya.” I replied.
“Paris has Nathan said when he’ll be returning to the game?”
“Paris how’s Nathan feeling about his teams win?”
These were just some of the questions I was asked by the paparazzi, they have been following me for 6 days now, too say I was frustrated was an understatement. I couldn’t even run to the shops because everything took triple the time.
I wish I could just yell the answers at them but instead
I was told by Nathans new PR team that I’m supposed to say nothing. Becky – the main member of the new PR team- has been less then pleasant towards me, yet another thing to deal with. Nathan constant bad mood hasn’t left him yet, I feel so sympathetic to his situation but his been a big asshole especially to me.
“Nathan?” I called from his front door as I let myself in.
He didn’t reply so I just followed the laughing coming from his room, I dumped my stuff in the kitchen and noticed Becky’s handbag sitting on the counter.
“Hey.” I said standing in the doorway taking in the sight before me.
“Hi.” Nathan said briefly looking up from his computer screen where Becky was sitting on his bed next to him looking intently at the screen. Ok call my crazy, call me jealous, but this bitch was sitting on my boyfriend’s bed looking awfully cosy with him, I was less than impressed.
“What’s going on here?” I asked trying to play cool.
“...just watching this youtube clip.” Becky answered sourly, like she wasn’t happy that I was interrupting their ‘moment’.
“Oh cool.” I replied.
“Babe shhhh, we’re almost done.” Nathan said Becky looked oddly proud.
I was fuming my blood was boiling it took everything I had to not run over and step on both of their faces.
“Sorry Nathan, how rude am I being right now?” I said sarcastically walking out of his room.
Nathan sighed and a little smile danced across Becky’s face.
I walked into the kitchen and started putting away the food, about 6 minutes later Becky emerged from his room, and Nathan followed with his crutches soon after.
“Alright well I’ll see you later Nathan, remember you have your final x-rays on Tuesday, will work on getting keeping the photographers away, and if it’s good news -which it will be- we can have a quick press conference on the steps of the hospital.” She said.
“Sounds great Becky thanks heaps for all the support you’ve given me the last 6 weeks.” He said nicely.
“No worries Nate, you’ve been my favourite client.” She winked.
I couldn’t help it my heart was beating uncontrollably fast and before I knew it tears stung my eyes, I quickly turned around and faced the sink, taking a big gulp of water.
“Bye Paris.” I heard Becky calling from the front door.
“Cya.” I replied.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Normal...?
The next few weeks were hard; Nathan was rarely out of his mood and constantly feeling sorry for himself. Danny had been spending more time with Georgie and more time training, the whole team has had to pick up the training and game preparations since Nathans out, they brought someone from the bench up, Nathan definitely didn’t approve of his replacement. Tonight was the first time I’d been at home and was looking forward to a good chat to Georgie about her situation with Danny.
“Hello pretty lady.” I said when Georgie came home; I was in the kitchen cooking some healthy meals to freeze for Nathan.
“HEY, your home tonight!” Georgie said excitedly.
“Yessss I am.” I said walking over to her and giving her a kiss on the cheek.
“What you making?” She said looking over the food I’d made.
“Just some food for Nathan.”
“Oh ok how’s he doing?”
“Umm his ok, just feeling sorry for himself, I just needed a break for a bit, I’ll probably go back later.” I said.
“If you need me to do anything, help you out, help him out whatever, just let me know.” She said thoughtfully.
“I will thanks, anyway enough about Nathan, you and Danny what’s going on there?” I asked fascinated.
“Well I guess where kind of seeing each other...we haven’t talked about anything official yet, but over the last few weeks we’ve been going out and stuff.” She smiled.
“Oh really? And stuff? What kind of stuff?” I said with a wink, I was very interested in other peoples sex lives, mainly cause Nathan and I haven’t touched each other in nearly a month since his injury.
“Ha ha, no sexy time yet, well almost but things weren’t quite working the way they were supposed to...” She said and went bright red.
“Oh he couldn’t?” I asked being extremely nosey.
She cleared her throat before continuing, “No we were both ready it’s just we were being really awkward about it and things weren’t coming off properly, and then he freaked about having sex with his friends sister...and that was about 2 hours ago.” Georgie said going redder then I have I’ve ever seen.
“Shit Georgie, I’m sorry that sucks...” I said sympathetically.
“Eh as long as he can get over it I don’t care, I like him a lot.” She smiled.
“Good attitude...alright I better go see your idiot brother.” I said getting up.
“At least he only has two more weeks in the cast.” She said supportively.
“True, then the training starts.” I said with a tight smile.
“Yep, then you’ll have Nathan back.” She smiled and started day dreaming.
Yep, not long until Nathan is himself again...
“Hello pretty lady.” I said when Georgie came home; I was in the kitchen cooking some healthy meals to freeze for Nathan.
“HEY, your home tonight!” Georgie said excitedly.
“Yessss I am.” I said walking over to her and giving her a kiss on the cheek.
“What you making?” She said looking over the food I’d made.
“Just some food for Nathan.”
“Oh ok how’s he doing?”
“Umm his ok, just feeling sorry for himself, I just needed a break for a bit, I’ll probably go back later.” I said.
“If you need me to do anything, help you out, help him out whatever, just let me know.” She said thoughtfully.
“I will thanks, anyway enough about Nathan, you and Danny what’s going on there?” I asked fascinated.
“Well I guess where kind of seeing each other...we haven’t talked about anything official yet, but over the last few weeks we’ve been going out and stuff.” She smiled.
“Oh really? And stuff? What kind of stuff?” I said with a wink, I was very interested in other peoples sex lives, mainly cause Nathan and I haven’t touched each other in nearly a month since his injury.
“Ha ha, no sexy time yet, well almost but things weren’t quite working the way they were supposed to...” She said and went bright red.
“Oh he couldn’t?” I asked being extremely nosey.
She cleared her throat before continuing, “No we were both ready it’s just we were being really awkward about it and things weren’t coming off properly, and then he freaked about having sex with his friends sister...and that was about 2 hours ago.” Georgie said going redder then I have I’ve ever seen.
“Shit Georgie, I’m sorry that sucks...” I said sympathetically.
“Eh as long as he can get over it I don’t care, I like him a lot.” She smiled.
“Good attitude...alright I better go see your idiot brother.” I said getting up.
“At least he only has two more weeks in the cast.” She said supportively.
“True, then the training starts.” I said with a tight smile.
“Yep, then you’ll have Nathan back.” She smiled and started day dreaming.
Yep, not long until Nathan is himself again...
Monday, December 6, 2010
Broken Bones
By Friday all my emotions were at boiling point, I felt excited that about representing the magazine, I felt fear for not representing it properly and I felt guilt for not being there for Nate when he needed me. Nate was cool about it but I don’t know I just felt like I was letting him down...Anyway Zoe’s been good on the nerve front as well; we’ve been practicing things to say and what to keep under our hats.
Zoe and I borrowed the dresses from The Fashion Cupboard; mine was this pale pink short dress while Zoe opted for a yellow maxi dress, we both wore heels, usually I don’t like maxi’s and heels but she looked beautiful. I kept my hair simple and chose a natural wavy look (that took about an hour to achieve) I also kept my make-up natural. Zoe’s hair was dead straight and she did a really subtle colour of eye shadow.
“You look sexy lady.” I said when Zoe walked up and planted a kiss on my cheek.
“Thank you, you’re not so bad yourself.” Zoe said with a wink.
We walked onto the boat showing our press passes and gliding past, I felt so important...
The event was a success we were both on point and shared information we could and played coy to info we chose to not divulge, generally we made a really good impression, some girls there were beyond drunk it was just embarrassing to watch.
My night was going well so I made a quick trip to the bathroom to check on the score on the game Eagles game, but my phone couldn’t get any signal on my phone so I had to wait until I got back to dry land, boo.
Anyhow we docked around 11pm, Zoe was giving me a lift home as soon as we got in the car my phone started beeping, I had 23 missed calls and 9 messages to say I was concerned was an understatement. I called Danny first seeing as he was the only familiar number that had called me.
“Paris, hey.”Danny answered.
“Hey what the hell’s going on?” I asked quickly.
“uh Paris its nothing really...uh Nathan, he broke his knee.” Danny said quietly.
“What?”
“He got tackled when he was getting a mark, completely illegal by the way, and he landed on his left knee.” Danny said hurrying through the story.
“Oh fuck, where is he? Is he alright?”
“Umm his on his way home from the hospital now, and I haven’t seen him, I’m guessing his not gonna be great P.”
“Fuck, fuck, fuck....Ok, I’ll be there ASAP.” I said hanging up and briefly explaining the situation to Zoe.
I beat Nathan home but only just, Georgie and Danny were already there, so was a representative from the club and Lesley seemed to have made the trip up from the beach and it looked like she sped her way here.
“Oh Paris your here.” Lesley said looking relieved.
“Yeah, where is he?” I asked.
“His here.” Nathan said his voice coming from his entrance.
People immediately began fawning over him he looked more pained by this then his actual broken knee which had a cast on it, poor Nate. He didn’t even get a chance to relax, suddenly it was crisis meeting time, his manager and the coach were talking strategies, he’d be off his leg for 7 weeks, which was 6 games because they had a bi one week, it doesnt sound like a lot but but by the time he got back to playing and training to be fit enough again, it would be finales time and the eagles would have to get there without Nathan, which lots of people had doubts about. Nathan was extremely unhappy, and everyone was being so insensitive, it’s like they forgot he was a person for a minute and only remembered the brand, which to me is the pretty damn heartbreaking.
Sigh, I’ll post again tomorrow, I have to go take care of my boyfriend, seeing as no one else is planning on actually doing it.
Zoe and I borrowed the dresses from The Fashion Cupboard; mine was this pale pink short dress while Zoe opted for a yellow maxi dress, we both wore heels, usually I don’t like maxi’s and heels but she looked beautiful. I kept my hair simple and chose a natural wavy look (that took about an hour to achieve) I also kept my make-up natural. Zoe’s hair was dead straight and she did a really subtle colour of eye shadow.
“You look sexy lady.” I said when Zoe walked up and planted a kiss on my cheek.
“Thank you, you’re not so bad yourself.” Zoe said with a wink.
We walked onto the boat showing our press passes and gliding past, I felt so important...
The event was a success we were both on point and shared information we could and played coy to info we chose to not divulge, generally we made a really good impression, some girls there were beyond drunk it was just embarrassing to watch.
My night was going well so I made a quick trip to the bathroom to check on the score on the game Eagles game, but my phone couldn’t get any signal on my phone so I had to wait until I got back to dry land, boo.
Anyhow we docked around 11pm, Zoe was giving me a lift home as soon as we got in the car my phone started beeping, I had 23 missed calls and 9 messages to say I was concerned was an understatement. I called Danny first seeing as he was the only familiar number that had called me.
“Paris, hey.”Danny answered.
“Hey what the hell’s going on?” I asked quickly.
“uh Paris its nothing really...uh Nathan, he broke his knee.” Danny said quietly.
“What?”
“He got tackled when he was getting a mark, completely illegal by the way, and he landed on his left knee.” Danny said hurrying through the story.
“Oh fuck, where is he? Is he alright?”
“Umm his on his way home from the hospital now, and I haven’t seen him, I’m guessing his not gonna be great P.”
“Fuck, fuck, fuck....Ok, I’ll be there ASAP.” I said hanging up and briefly explaining the situation to Zoe.
I beat Nathan home but only just, Georgie and Danny were already there, so was a representative from the club and Lesley seemed to have made the trip up from the beach and it looked like she sped her way here.
“Oh Paris your here.” Lesley said looking relieved.
“Yeah, where is he?” I asked.
“His here.” Nathan said his voice coming from his entrance.
People immediately began fawning over him he looked more pained by this then his actual broken knee which had a cast on it, poor Nate. He didn’t even get a chance to relax, suddenly it was crisis meeting time, his manager and the coach were talking strategies, he’d be off his leg for 7 weeks, which was 6 games because they had a bi one week, it doesnt sound like a lot but but by the time he got back to playing and training to be fit enough again, it would be finales time and the eagles would have to get there without Nathan, which lots of people had doubts about. Nathan was extremely unhappy, and everyone was being so insensitive, it’s like they forgot he was a person for a minute and only remembered the brand, which to me is the pretty damn heartbreaking.
Sigh, I’ll post again tomorrow, I have to go take care of my boyfriend, seeing as no one else is planning on actually doing it.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Coming Home
In the weeks since the reading everything was going pretty smoothly, I had been to all of Nathans three games he played (they won two lost the third ), Georgie and I were getting on fantastically and Audrey hadn’t even as uttered by name as far as I was aware. Radiance was going well and we were REALLY busy but it was good.
“Paris, would you come here please?” Minnie called from her office.
“Sure.” I called back.
As I sat down in her plush office chair she began talking.
“Paris I was wondering if you please represent Radiance at the 2010 Magazine convention this Friday?” She asked.
My mind ticked over Friday, I had Nathans game this week, he wouldn’t mind if I missed it especially for this opportunity, I wasn’t exactly sure what it was but I was extremely excited to find out.
“Yes of course, I would love to.” I smiled.
“Ok great and you can pick someone to come with you from the office...” She said.
“Zoe I think would be great.” I smiled.
“I thought so...Zoe come in here please.” She called from her office, Zoe soon joined me and we caught her up to speed.
“So what exactly does representing the magazine involve?” I asked.
“Well you will be there with all other fashion and beauty magazines in Australia, you have to be careful not to give away too much but still seem approachable and happy to answer questions about Radiance.” Minnie explained.
“Great.” Zoe replied excitedly.
We went over details (Boat on Sydney harbour, sailing around) and Minnie said we can borrow something from The Fashion Cupboard (:O) to wear so it’s safe to say we were more than a little excited, as were leaving the office Minnie asked me to stay for a minute.
“Paris I’m very excited to see how you do this weekend, we need you to be on point, because in Paris you are expected to represent our magazine well.” She said seriously.
“I understand that Minnie, thank you again.” I answered before sitting back at my desk.
She nodded with a smile as I left.
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Nathan opened his front door and I jumped on him giving him a massive kiss.
“Hello.” He said laughing he was still holding me close.
“Hello my darling boyfriend, how was training?” I asked before laying a few more kisses on him.
“It was good, hmm why can’t I get this welcome every time we see each other.” He said putting me down leaning me gently against his front door and kissing me.
“Hmm because then it wouldn’t be as special...” I answered slowly unbuttoning his shirt.
“I think it would be.” He said his hand going dangerously up my thigh.
“Before we take it to the point of no return, is Danny in?” I asked as Nathan was kissing my neck.
Nathan chose to ignore my question and keep kissing me, until I started pulling my shirt back on and then he snapped to attention.
“Uh babe stop...nope Danny his out with Georgie tonight I believe.” Nathan said pushing my shift to the ground followed by my skirt.
“Yay.” I said.
Nathan and I were otherwise amused for the next hour or so...
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We were lying in bed after our marathon session, I was trying to keep my eyes open but I wiped.
“How many tickets did you want for Friday?” Nathan asked rubbing my back gently.
“Oh babe I forgot to tell you, I can’t make it Friday, I have this work function thing Minnie really wants me to be at, sorry.” I said turning around and kissing his hand.
“Oh that’s ok.” Nathan said but his face looked a little sad, I felt a pang of guilt at the situation.
“I’m really sorry Nate.” I said.
“Its fine, seriously will meet up after?”
“Yesssss, and I’ll check updates on my phone every ten minutes and tell you how sexy you looked running around the field.” I said suddenly now so tired.
The rest of the night was a blur of sex, food and more sex.
“Paris, would you come here please?” Minnie called from her office.
“Sure.” I called back.
As I sat down in her plush office chair she began talking.
“Paris I was wondering if you please represent Radiance at the 2010 Magazine convention this Friday?” She asked.
My mind ticked over Friday, I had Nathans game this week, he wouldn’t mind if I missed it especially for this opportunity, I wasn’t exactly sure what it was but I was extremely excited to find out.
“Yes of course, I would love to.” I smiled.
“Ok great and you can pick someone to come with you from the office...” She said.
“Zoe I think would be great.” I smiled.
“I thought so...Zoe come in here please.” She called from her office, Zoe soon joined me and we caught her up to speed.
“So what exactly does representing the magazine involve?” I asked.
“Well you will be there with all other fashion and beauty magazines in Australia, you have to be careful not to give away too much but still seem approachable and happy to answer questions about Radiance.” Minnie explained.
“Great.” Zoe replied excitedly.
We went over details (Boat on Sydney harbour, sailing around) and Minnie said we can borrow something from The Fashion Cupboard (:O) to wear so it’s safe to say we were more than a little excited, as were leaving the office Minnie asked me to stay for a minute.
“Paris I’m very excited to see how you do this weekend, we need you to be on point, because in Paris you are expected to represent our magazine well.” She said seriously.
“I understand that Minnie, thank you again.” I answered before sitting back at my desk.
She nodded with a smile as I left.
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Nathan opened his front door and I jumped on him giving him a massive kiss.
“Hello.” He said laughing he was still holding me close.
“Hello my darling boyfriend, how was training?” I asked before laying a few more kisses on him.
“It was good, hmm why can’t I get this welcome every time we see each other.” He said putting me down leaning me gently against his front door and kissing me.
“Hmm because then it wouldn’t be as special...” I answered slowly unbuttoning his shirt.
“I think it would be.” He said his hand going dangerously up my thigh.
“Before we take it to the point of no return, is Danny in?” I asked as Nathan was kissing my neck.
Nathan chose to ignore my question and keep kissing me, until I started pulling my shirt back on and then he snapped to attention.
“Uh babe stop...nope Danny his out with Georgie tonight I believe.” Nathan said pushing my shift to the ground followed by my skirt.
“Yay.” I said.
Nathan and I were otherwise amused for the next hour or so...
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We were lying in bed after our marathon session, I was trying to keep my eyes open but I wiped.
“How many tickets did you want for Friday?” Nathan asked rubbing my back gently.
“Oh babe I forgot to tell you, I can’t make it Friday, I have this work function thing Minnie really wants me to be at, sorry.” I said turning around and kissing his hand.
“Oh that’s ok.” Nathan said but his face looked a little sad, I felt a pang of guilt at the situation.
“I’m really sorry Nate.” I said.
“Its fine, seriously will meet up after?”
“Yesssss, and I’ll check updates on my phone every ten minutes and tell you how sexy you looked running around the field.” I said suddenly now so tired.
The rest of the night was a blur of sex, food and more sex.
Friday, December 3, 2010
Goose Bumps
Zoe and I both turned our heads, my skin covered in goose bumps I don’t know why we were acting such weirdos.
“Excuse me ladies, would you like a psychic reading?” A friendly looking
woman asked.
“Ummm,” I hesitated.
“Sure.” Zoe chimed in excitedly.
“Ok great, follow me.” She said taking her time to look us both up and down. Now I’ve never been that into psychic, but my mum was, so as a result I’d end up going with her, I found it really interesting, but that’s about all I got out of it. The woman led us around the corner to a purple painted door with the name Susan’s psychic printed on the front; I wondered why she chose to call out after us.
“How much will this cost?” Zoe asked as we walked through the door. As soon as I did I was confronted with a room full of purple, it looked like a stereotypical psychic office, but Susan herself looked just like every other commuter after work. The desk that separated us from her was had no embellishments, behind Susan there were a couple of photos, beaches mainly, some with lovers holding hands, I guess it made sense we were right across the road from the beach.
“I’ll do a free reading today, I saw you two at the cafe and our both looked a little lost.” She smiled friendly.
I raised my eyebrows at Zoe and she gave me a little smirk.
“Ok who’s first?” Susan asked as we were getting comfy on her
I shook my head at Zoe and she jumped in, “I’ll go.”
“Do you want your friend to stay?” Susan asked and Zoe nodded.
“Ok so, your name sweetheart?” Susan asked.
“Zoe.” She answered.
“Hmm ok Zoe, now you clearly work in fashion.” She answered.
Zoe’s mouth gaped, “I work at Radiance, how’d you know?”
“Umm well your dressed lovely and you were carrying around a stack of magazines.” Susan answered smiling, I laughed out loud and Susan joined it.
“Oh right.” Zoe smiled.
“Ok so you have had a pretty up and down year, there was a man in the picture, I believe you perhaps thought he was going to be a serious relationship but that ended painfully.” Zoe’s face was full of shock at that point, I was wondering if Susan would be able to play off people’s reactions or she genuinely knew.
“Hmm he is quite a selfish young man but he will grow out of it and be very happy by the time his 30, just not with you.” Susan smiled sweetly.
“Good.” Zoe said quietly.
“What else, well the young man in the picture now, he genuinely cares for you, but he is also a little selfish, it’s something you both can work through but it will be hard, I believe in the end this man is the one you will end up with, even if obstacles get in your way, hmm his name is fairly appropriate to getting through this...I can’t quite get it...Breaker, that’s it.” Susan said through closed eyes and a satisfied smile. “Break through the challenges and you will be happy.”
Zoe’s mouth was wide with shock, as was mine, how did this woman know?
“Any questions you’d specifically like to ask?” Susan said.
“Umm what about me job? How will that be in the New Year?” Zoe asked.
“Hmm some extreme challenges face you, you are getting a promotion, yes?” Susan asked for conformation.
“Yes, I am.”
“Ok well it will be difficult but there will be many people to help you through.”
Susan talked for a bit longer, mostly about Zoe’s family and how happy they would be in the New Year, she also predicted a health scare for a female in her but in the end it will all work out in the best outcome, whatever that means.
“Hmmm so your turn love?” Susan smiled sweetly in my direction.
“I guess so, Paris.” I said smiling while introducing myself.
“Hmm ok Paris let’s see...” Susan was quiet for a long time before starting, I looked panicked at Zoe who gave me a reassuring look. “Well your boyfriend plays some sort of sport does he?”
“Yes, football.” I answered.
“Well I’m not sure how much longer he will be playing; challenges are going to face you in the next few months, big unavoidable challenges in your relationship that will change both of you forever. I can’t see what exactly but I know this time next year nothing will be the same.” Susan answered.
I looked at her puzzled, “What?” I asked panicked, I loved my life now, I didn’t want anything to change besides the pervy paparazzi that have taken to following me around.
“Unfortunately your future isn’t as clear to me as Zoe’s was, which means you still have some pretty important decisions to make and it will probably be very soon that your faced with these decisions.”
“Ok.” I whispered.
“I have only one bit of advice for you, the only certainty in your life at the moment, is if you take all the opportunities your career offers you then you will excel beyond any dream you’ve had.”
Susan then wrapped up the reading, she had scheduled appointments coming through and needed to time to cleanse the room or something. I didn’t know what to make of the reading, Zoe got such a clear accurate reading and it seems like mine was just a lot of jumbled words trying to make me scared, Nathan and I are fine, I’m doing wonderfully at my job and I have nothing to worry about.
I wish I wasn’t so sure about that, or what came next maybe wouldn’t have been so hard to deal with.
“Excuse me ladies, would you like a psychic reading?” A friendly looking
woman asked.
“Ummm,” I hesitated.
“Sure.” Zoe chimed in excitedly.
“Ok great, follow me.” She said taking her time to look us both up and down. Now I’ve never been that into psychic, but my mum was, so as a result I’d end up going with her, I found it really interesting, but that’s about all I got out of it. The woman led us around the corner to a purple painted door with the name Susan’s psychic printed on the front; I wondered why she chose to call out after us.
“How much will this cost?” Zoe asked as we walked through the door. As soon as I did I was confronted with a room full of purple, it looked like a stereotypical psychic office, but Susan herself looked just like every other commuter after work. The desk that separated us from her was had no embellishments, behind Susan there were a couple of photos, beaches mainly, some with lovers holding hands, I guess it made sense we were right across the road from the beach.
“I’ll do a free reading today, I saw you two at the cafe and our both looked a little lost.” She smiled friendly.
I raised my eyebrows at Zoe and she gave me a little smirk.
“Ok who’s first?” Susan asked as we were getting comfy on her
I shook my head at Zoe and she jumped in, “I’ll go.”
“Do you want your friend to stay?” Susan asked and Zoe nodded.
“Ok so, your name sweetheart?” Susan asked.
“Zoe.” She answered.
“Hmm ok Zoe, now you clearly work in fashion.” She answered.
Zoe’s mouth gaped, “I work at Radiance, how’d you know?”
“Umm well your dressed lovely and you were carrying around a stack of magazines.” Susan answered smiling, I laughed out loud and Susan joined it.
“Oh right.” Zoe smiled.
“Ok so you have had a pretty up and down year, there was a man in the picture, I believe you perhaps thought he was going to be a serious relationship but that ended painfully.” Zoe’s face was full of shock at that point, I was wondering if Susan would be able to play off people’s reactions or she genuinely knew.
“Hmm he is quite a selfish young man but he will grow out of it and be very happy by the time his 30, just not with you.” Susan smiled sweetly.
“Good.” Zoe said quietly.
“What else, well the young man in the picture now, he genuinely cares for you, but he is also a little selfish, it’s something you both can work through but it will be hard, I believe in the end this man is the one you will end up with, even if obstacles get in your way, hmm his name is fairly appropriate to getting through this...I can’t quite get it...Breaker, that’s it.” Susan said through closed eyes and a satisfied smile. “Break through the challenges and you will be happy.”
Zoe’s mouth was wide with shock, as was mine, how did this woman know?
“Any questions you’d specifically like to ask?” Susan said.
“Umm what about me job? How will that be in the New Year?” Zoe asked.
“Hmm some extreme challenges face you, you are getting a promotion, yes?” Susan asked for conformation.
“Yes, I am.”
“Ok well it will be difficult but there will be many people to help you through.”
Susan talked for a bit longer, mostly about Zoe’s family and how happy they would be in the New Year, she also predicted a health scare for a female in her but in the end it will all work out in the best outcome, whatever that means.
“Hmmm so your turn love?” Susan smiled sweetly in my direction.
“I guess so, Paris.” I said smiling while introducing myself.
“Hmm ok Paris let’s see...” Susan was quiet for a long time before starting, I looked panicked at Zoe who gave me a reassuring look. “Well your boyfriend plays some sort of sport does he?”
“Yes, football.” I answered.
“Well I’m not sure how much longer he will be playing; challenges are going to face you in the next few months, big unavoidable challenges in your relationship that will change both of you forever. I can’t see what exactly but I know this time next year nothing will be the same.” Susan answered.
I looked at her puzzled, “What?” I asked panicked, I loved my life now, I didn’t want anything to change besides the pervy paparazzi that have taken to following me around.
“Unfortunately your future isn’t as clear to me as Zoe’s was, which means you still have some pretty important decisions to make and it will probably be very soon that your faced with these decisions.”
“Ok.” I whispered.
“I have only one bit of advice for you, the only certainty in your life at the moment, is if you take all the opportunities your career offers you then you will excel beyond any dream you’ve had.”
Susan then wrapped up the reading, she had scheduled appointments coming through and needed to time to cleanse the room or something. I didn’t know what to make of the reading, Zoe got such a clear accurate reading and it seems like mine was just a lot of jumbled words trying to make me scared, Nathan and I are fine, I’m doing wonderfully at my job and I have nothing to worry about.
I wish I wasn’t so sure about that, or what came next maybe wouldn’t have been so hard to deal with.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Just Breathe
“What are you doing here Georgie?” I asked as we were walking down the streets, I was extremely relived that she arrived when she did.
“Nathan called me, asked me to check on you and you weren’t answering your phone, so I freaked out and ran over here.”She explained.
“I’m sorry, you shouldn’t have worried, I would have been fine.”
“Oh yeah you looked like you were in complete control, dude she was about to pull out your hair out.” She said still gripping my arm tight.
“I never thought she’d do something like that.” I said, still shocked.
“I know, Audrey didn’t seem like the violent type.” She said.
"I didn’t think she was.” I said. I guess it was a perfect ending to an imperfect friendship, Audrey finally showed her true colours and I felt like I could finally breathe again.
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“So what she poured water on you, pulled your hair, said I cheated on you and bagged out your family, is that it?” Nathan asked pacing up and down his lounge room while Georgie and I watched from the couch; it was safe to say he was a little pissed off.
“That about covers it.” I said trying to get him to sit down, while Georgie went to the kitchen, giving us some alone time.
“I didn’t have sex with her, I mean I did obviously, but not since I met you.” He said.
“Ok.” I said, I wasn’t going to deny that I was hoping he would give me an answer without me having to ask, I trust Nathan, he finally say next to me and I buried my head into his chest, breathing him in.
“I talked to my manager about the website, his trying really hard to get the article off, but it’s already out there, not much that can be done.” He said.
“It sucks but honestly as you said it’s out there now, I’ve been fielding calls from my family all day, at least my mum hasn’t seen it, oh well I’m a home wrecking, slut, whose boyfriend doesn’t really like her...Things could be worse I suppose.” I said snuggling into Nathan.
“Well I love you and so do my friends, and you definitely weren’t a home wrecker, I feel like we constantly have to explain and prove our relationship to other people, let’s just let it be.”Nathan said, quoting the Beatles who I recently found out were one of his favourite bands.
“You are so cute, I love you.” I said smiling, we had finally found some harmony in our crazy lives, I wonder how long it will last?
“Nathan called me, asked me to check on you and you weren’t answering your phone, so I freaked out and ran over here.”She explained.
“I’m sorry, you shouldn’t have worried, I would have been fine.”
“Oh yeah you looked like you were in complete control, dude she was about to pull out your hair out.” She said still gripping my arm tight.
“I never thought she’d do something like that.” I said, still shocked.
“I know, Audrey didn’t seem like the violent type.” She said.
"I didn’t think she was.” I said. I guess it was a perfect ending to an imperfect friendship, Audrey finally showed her true colours and I felt like I could finally breathe again.
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“So what she poured water on you, pulled your hair, said I cheated on you and bagged out your family, is that it?” Nathan asked pacing up and down his lounge room while Georgie and I watched from the couch; it was safe to say he was a little pissed off.
“That about covers it.” I said trying to get him to sit down, while Georgie went to the kitchen, giving us some alone time.
“I didn’t have sex with her, I mean I did obviously, but not since I met you.” He said.
“Ok.” I said, I wasn’t going to deny that I was hoping he would give me an answer without me having to ask, I trust Nathan, he finally say next to me and I buried my head into his chest, breathing him in.
“I talked to my manager about the website, his trying really hard to get the article off, but it’s already out there, not much that can be done.” He said.
“It sucks but honestly as you said it’s out there now, I’ve been fielding calls from my family all day, at least my mum hasn’t seen it, oh well I’m a home wrecking, slut, whose boyfriend doesn’t really like her...Things could be worse I suppose.” I said snuggling into Nathan.
“Well I love you and so do my friends, and you definitely weren’t a home wrecker, I feel like we constantly have to explain and prove our relationship to other people, let’s just let it be.”Nathan said, quoting the Beatles who I recently found out were one of his favourite bands.
“You are so cute, I love you.” I said smiling, we had finally found some harmony in our crazy lives, I wonder how long it will last?
Friday, November 19, 2010
Angry By Extension
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I called Nathan on the way to Audrey’s I was absolutely fuming and needed him to see it.
“Hello beautiful,” Nathan answered sweetly.
“Log on to dish the dirt.” I said instead of hello.
“Babe you know I don’t care about celebrity goss and all that.” He said, but I heard walk over to his computer click around about a minute later, while I was furiously pushing the Sunday commuters on the train Nathan let out a loud breath, signifying he had now seen the article that was trashing his girlfriend.
“What the hell is this?” He asked.
“Good fucking question.” I practically yelled and got a dirty look from a woman sitting next to me.
“Fuck is this slander or something?” He asked.
“Argh I don’t know, I think maybe but she’s not really saying anything particularly damaging for my career at least.” I said.
“Babe what the hell she said I tried to kiss her?” He asked obviously still reading the article.
“Yes, Nathan I’m going to go see what she has to say for herself.” I said impatiently standing up, ready to get off at the stop.
“What? No Paris I think that’s a really bad idea.”
“Well I’m nearly at the building, Nathan you’re forgetting that she was my best friend, this is not just some random journalist that wrote a story.”
“Ok Paris if you want to confront her that’s fine, but I honestly think you shouldn’t go alone, you say she hasn’t printed anything to affect your career but what if she does, I honestly think that you may just provoke
her.” He explained.
“I get what you’re saying but I want to talk to her, plus I still need to pick up some of my stuff too.” I justified, my arguments were becoming pretty weak.
“Babe this is the last thing I’ll say about it, I think it will get to Audrey more if you ignore it, don’t play into her petty teenage games.” Nathan said maturely.
“I love you Nathan, and just because I don’t agree with you right now doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate your advice.” I said finally stopping my speed walking and leaning against a brick wall close to the apartment.
“Just trying this new thing, umm I think it’s called communication with the woman I love?” He said lightly.
“I like it.” I smiled.
“Alright well when you’re done ranting and raving at Audrey come over and I’ll talk to my manager see what can be done about the website.” He said.
We exchanged I love you’s and I continued my trek to my old apartment.
I called Nathan on the way to Audrey’s I was absolutely fuming and needed him to see it.
“Hello beautiful,” Nathan answered sweetly.
“Log on to dish the dirt.” I said instead of hello.
“Babe you know I don’t care about celebrity goss and all that.” He said, but I heard walk over to his computer click around about a minute later, while I was furiously pushing the Sunday commuters on the train Nathan let out a loud breath, signifying he had now seen the article that was trashing his girlfriend.
“What the hell is this?” He asked.
“Good fucking question.” I practically yelled and got a dirty look from a woman sitting next to me.
“Fuck is this slander or something?” He asked.
“Argh I don’t know, I think maybe but she’s not really saying anything particularly damaging for my career at least.” I said.
“Babe what the hell she said I tried to kiss her?” He asked obviously still reading the article.
“Yes, Nathan I’m going to go see what she has to say for herself.” I said impatiently standing up, ready to get off at the stop.
“What? No Paris I think that’s a really bad idea.”
“Well I’m nearly at the building, Nathan you’re forgetting that she was my best friend, this is not just some random journalist that wrote a story.”
“Ok Paris if you want to confront her that’s fine, but I honestly think you shouldn’t go alone, you say she hasn’t printed anything to affect your career but what if she does, I honestly think that you may just provoke
her.” He explained.
“I get what you’re saying but I want to talk to her, plus I still need to pick up some of my stuff too.” I justified, my arguments were becoming pretty weak.
“Babe this is the last thing I’ll say about it, I think it will get to Audrey more if you ignore it, don’t play into her petty teenage games.” Nathan said maturely.
“I love you Nathan, and just because I don’t agree with you right now doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate your advice.” I said finally stopping my speed walking and leaning against a brick wall close to the apartment.
“Just trying this new thing, umm I think it’s called communication with the woman I love?” He said lightly.
“I like it.” I smiled.
“Alright well when you’re done ranting and raving at Audrey come over and I’ll talk to my manager see what can be done about the website.” He said.
We exchanged I love you’s and I continued my trek to my old apartment.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Irreparable
*Hey guys, I'm really sorry I havent posted! I suck heaps I know! I have never been so stressed in my entire life, school absoutley killed me. I've been close to having a break down, but anyway school is almost over, and next week you guys will have WAY more consistency, if I can build up enough posts then I can hopefully posts everyday next week...again thats a maybe but I'll try my hardest! I honestly hope I havent lost any readers since by break and I promise to my loyal readers I will do my best to make you love me again ;) I hope everyone has had a safe and happy October + beginning of November! I've missed writing heaps!
Everybody left me and George’s house about midday we all had lunch together, it was really lovely, I can’t wait for our families to meet each other, I think that most of them will get along really well. Chelsea promised me we’d meet in the city one day this week for lunch, so that will be lovely. Nathan went to see Lesley, Brad and Martine before they left, and apparently it was very awkward with Martine, poor Nathan it doesn’t look like that particular relationship will be fully healed for some time.
So I was having a fairly lazy Sunday after everyone left and I got a mysterious email from Leigh from work, it was a link to dish the dirt with a message that said “Call my if you want to talk honey,”, Leigh isn’t really the ‘send the celebrity gossip link to a friend’ kind of girl so I was immediately concerned.
I clicked on the link and was faced with an entire 1000 word story about me. There were photos to accompany the article and it was less than a flattering image portrayed.
“Paris Lorre well your time has finally come; the little minx and her boyfriend Nathan Luken are apparently on the rocks, yuck. Poor girl, finally introduced to the high life and it’s about to be snatched away from her. Nathans friends were supposably less than thrilled when they met the young journalist, since then Nathan has been trying to distance himself...”
That was followed by a photo of Nathan and I hugging in the street and him breaking away looking angry (this was a joke at the time because we wouldn’t be seeing each other on the weekend, he was angry we had to leave not because we were ‘on the rocks’...).
“Paris’ roommate –who has chosen to be unnamed in this article- told Dish the Dirt that Paris was doing anything to keep Nathan interested, including very loud all night sexy times, Paris’ roommate also said that Nathan was continuously flirty with the her and was even bold enough to try to kiss her, she ignored it to attempt to keep a friendship with Paris intact.”
This was followed by a photo of Nathan and I after his game, when we were talking in the little corner, his hands were resting just above my ass, and we were just breaking from the kiss, the next photo was Nathan being tackled by his friends and me watching from the side, smiling. This was obviously trying to enhance the magazines point that his friends don’t like me.
“It’s a shame; we really thought that this simple girl could finally tame this wild beast of a football player, oh well let’s roll on the next girl who is willing to change herself completely for a boy.”
Followed by a photo of me in track pants with no make-up on going to the gym compared to a photo of me at Nathans first game linking with Georgie, my hair was done in nice curls and I wore simple make-up with a little dress and gladiator sandals.
To say I was shocked was an understatement, the article went on and on about how I wasn’t good enough for Nathan and how surprising it was we lasted this long. This had one persons dirty little finger prints all over it, so I did what I thought I had to do. I paid Audrey a little visit.
Everybody left me and George’s house about midday we all had lunch together, it was really lovely, I can’t wait for our families to meet each other, I think that most of them will get along really well. Chelsea promised me we’d meet in the city one day this week for lunch, so that will be lovely. Nathan went to see Lesley, Brad and Martine before they left, and apparently it was very awkward with Martine, poor Nathan it doesn’t look like that particular relationship will be fully healed for some time.
So I was having a fairly lazy Sunday after everyone left and I got a mysterious email from Leigh from work, it was a link to dish the dirt with a message that said “Call my if you want to talk honey,”, Leigh isn’t really the ‘send the celebrity gossip link to a friend’ kind of girl so I was immediately concerned.
I clicked on the link and was faced with an entire 1000 word story about me. There were photos to accompany the article and it was less than a flattering image portrayed.
“Paris Lorre well your time has finally come; the little minx and her boyfriend Nathan Luken are apparently on the rocks, yuck. Poor girl, finally introduced to the high life and it’s about to be snatched away from her. Nathans friends were supposably less than thrilled when they met the young journalist, since then Nathan has been trying to distance himself...”
That was followed by a photo of Nathan and I hugging in the street and him breaking away looking angry (this was a joke at the time because we wouldn’t be seeing each other on the weekend, he was angry we had to leave not because we were ‘on the rocks’...).
“Paris’ roommate –who has chosen to be unnamed in this article- told Dish the Dirt that Paris was doing anything to keep Nathan interested, including very loud all night sexy times, Paris’ roommate also said that Nathan was continuously flirty with the her and was even bold enough to try to kiss her, she ignored it to attempt to keep a friendship with Paris intact.”
This was followed by a photo of Nathan and I after his game, when we were talking in the little corner, his hands were resting just above my ass, and we were just breaking from the kiss, the next photo was Nathan being tackled by his friends and me watching from the side, smiling. This was obviously trying to enhance the magazines point that his friends don’t like me.
“It’s a shame; we really thought that this simple girl could finally tame this wild beast of a football player, oh well let’s roll on the next girl who is willing to change herself completely for a boy.”
Followed by a photo of me in track pants with no make-up on going to the gym compared to a photo of me at Nathans first game linking with Georgie, my hair was done in nice curls and I wore simple make-up with a little dress and gladiator sandals.
To say I was shocked was an understatement, the article went on and on about how I wasn’t good enough for Nathan and how surprising it was we lasted this long. This had one persons dirty little finger prints all over it, so I did what I thought I had to do. I paid Audrey a little visit.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Make Up's?
“So you won huh?” I said in lure of hello to Nathan when he called me just after 11pm.
“We won! I’m really happy you were there Paris.” He said quietly.
“Me too.” I replied honestly.
“So can I come over?” He asked carefully.
“...If you want to.” I replied, it’s not that I didn’t want him to come over, it’s just I didn’t want to sound like a broken record and ask when we were going to talk about our ‘issues’, if we didn’t do it straight away then we would probably never do it.
“Don’t sound too excited.” He chuckled.
“I’m sorry, I do want to see you, it’s just a little weird.”I said.
“Weird how?” He asked softly.
“Um well, I guess after our fight there’s a lot that needs to be said.” I answered.
“Ok well what do you want to say?” He asked.
I exhaled loudly; I didn’t really know where this conversation was leading. “So when you went to Melbourne, and that shit happened with Katie, you never really gave an explanation.” I said softly.
“I went to Melbourne with the team; our coaches don’t give us a lot of notice on these sorts of things, especially so close to a season starting and by the time I was told about it you and I were not speaking, I just didn’t know what to say and they took away our phones, but Georgie got in touch with the couch who told me about it and I came home.” He answered honestly.
“Ok.” I replied.
“I was angry Paris, Brett is a complete creep and I tried to tell you that and you didn’t listen, and then I had to hear you tell me about it when he finally showed his true colours and you were surprised, and I didn’t say anything at the time, that’s why it all came out the other night.” Nate said calmly, he wasn’t getting on the defence just explaining his point of view.
“I honestly believed he just wanted to be friends Nate, I would never have put myself in that position had I thought he was after something more.” I said.
“...I wasn’t sure I believed that before but I know you Paris and I know you wouldn’t intentionally out yourself in that place.” He said.
We were silent for a while before I started talking.
“So why didn’t you want me there today?” I asked.
“I don’t know a weird supposition that I have, I usually only have family at the first game, and I didn’t know how to tell you without sounding like a prick.” He said.
“You know you would have sounded like way less of a prick if you’d just told me, if you’d told me I would have been fine to cheer you on from home if that’s what you wanted.” I said.
He sighed, “I know, and every time I got close I just couldn’t.”
“Ok, well in future let’s just be honest with each other, I don’t want you to keep things from me because you’re scared of my reaction.” I said a few tears escaping my eyes.
“Ok, deal honesty.” He said.
“If you still wanna come over you ca-, sorry, hold on the door bell is ringing.” I said and made my way to the front door wiping my tears.
Nate was at my door, his phone in hand and some flowers in the other. I pulled him inside and kissed him, we didn’t speak he just wiped my tears away and pulled me close against him.
“I love you Paris Lorre and I couldn’t imagine not being with you.” He whispered in my ear, as he picked me up off the ground and carried me to my room.
“We won! I’m really happy you were there Paris.” He said quietly.
“Me too.” I replied honestly.
“So can I come over?” He asked carefully.
“...If you want to.” I replied, it’s not that I didn’t want him to come over, it’s just I didn’t want to sound like a broken record and ask when we were going to talk about our ‘issues’, if we didn’t do it straight away then we would probably never do it.
“Don’t sound too excited.” He chuckled.
“I’m sorry, I do want to see you, it’s just a little weird.”I said.
“Weird how?” He asked softly.
“Um well, I guess after our fight there’s a lot that needs to be said.” I answered.
“Ok well what do you want to say?” He asked.
I exhaled loudly; I didn’t really know where this conversation was leading. “So when you went to Melbourne, and that shit happened with Katie, you never really gave an explanation.” I said softly.
“I went to Melbourne with the team; our coaches don’t give us a lot of notice on these sorts of things, especially so close to a season starting and by the time I was told about it you and I were not speaking, I just didn’t know what to say and they took away our phones, but Georgie got in touch with the couch who told me about it and I came home.” He answered honestly.
“Ok.” I replied.
“I was angry Paris, Brett is a complete creep and I tried to tell you that and you didn’t listen, and then I had to hear you tell me about it when he finally showed his true colours and you were surprised, and I didn’t say anything at the time, that’s why it all came out the other night.” Nate said calmly, he wasn’t getting on the defence just explaining his point of view.
“I honestly believed he just wanted to be friends Nate, I would never have put myself in that position had I thought he was after something more.” I said.
“...I wasn’t sure I believed that before but I know you Paris and I know you wouldn’t intentionally out yourself in that place.” He said.
We were silent for a while before I started talking.
“So why didn’t you want me there today?” I asked.
“I don’t know a weird supposition that I have, I usually only have family at the first game, and I didn’t know how to tell you without sounding like a prick.” He said.
“You know you would have sounded like way less of a prick if you’d just told me, if you’d told me I would have been fine to cheer you on from home if that’s what you wanted.” I said.
He sighed, “I know, and every time I got close I just couldn’t.”
“Ok, well in future let’s just be honest with each other, I don’t want you to keep things from me because you’re scared of my reaction.” I said a few tears escaping my eyes.
“Ok, deal honesty.” He said.
“If you still wanna come over you ca-, sorry, hold on the door bell is ringing.” I said and made my way to the front door wiping my tears.
Nate was at my door, his phone in hand and some flowers in the other. I pulled him inside and kissed him, we didn’t speak he just wiped my tears away and pulled me close against him.
“I love you Paris Lorre and I couldn’t imagine not being with you.” He whispered in my ear, as he picked me up off the ground and carried me to my room.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Round 1 - The Win
Nathan played an AMAZING game, he looked so good on the field, throwing the ball and kicking it, they won by a mile, so it wasn’t an overly exciting game, from the first quarter everyone could tell that the Eagles were going to win. Seeing as there was no tension with the game apparently the crowd soaked it up, and by the crowd I mean Martine.
As soon as I walked up with Chelsea, Jake and Georgie (Belle and Matt took a little longer to get ready, they were meeting us later) awkwardness filled the air.
“Hello everyone, I didn’t think you were coming Paris.” Martine said.
“Nope, Nathan called me this morning, I changed my plans.” I said and suddenly Lesley wrapped me up in a tight hug.
“You look beautiful Paris, I’m so glad you made it.”She said genuinely.
“Chelsea what’s wrong you look sick my dear.” Lesley said as she enveloped her, Martine stood up for the side watching the scene play out in front of her.
“Bit of a hangover is all.” She laughed.
“Really Chelsea? It’s your brother’s big day you shouldn’t have been selfish.” Martine chimed in.
“Mum you know Nathans had heaps of big days, I had a good night with everyone.”
“Hmm well I just think perhaps you could have been a little bit more sensitive, you know how nervous he gets.” She said.
“Well I’m bloody well here aren’t I?” She said quickly and falling back in line with me Georgie and Jake, he still had barely acknowledged his mothers presence.
“Now Georgie you’ve done something different with your hair?” Lesley asked fingering Georgie lighter locks.
“Yeah I have, it’s a nice change.” She replied.
“Hmm blonde is a lot of maintenance.” Martine again chimed in; she was even more negative than normal.
“Well I think it looks lovely, we going in?” I interrupted and linked arms with Georgie as we led everyone into the stadium.
Suddenly I became aware of somebody snapping pictures of me.
“What is he doing?” I asked Georgie.
“Welcome to a wag world.” The man snapping the pictures said as he winked
and started backing away.
“What the hell was that?” Chelsea said as she ran up behind me.
“Some pap wanted a photo of Paris.” Georgie laughed.
“Eww, I don’t want a photo of me! I’m SO not a wag, why do people keep saying that to me!” I moaned.
“Well maybe you should have thought about not wanting the wag status before you started dating a football player.” Martine added from behind.
“But then we wouldn’t have her lovely company.” Lesley added gosh she was good at turning a negative comment into a positive.
Soon we were all wedged into the seats in the VIP stand, well not wedged I’m not going to lie the seats were lovely, we were in the important area. The stadium took my breath away, I hadn’t been to a football game in a VERY long time, the sun beat down and there were soooo many people! All had different team jerseys, and people were milling around attempting to find their seats. The VIP apparently usually just housed girlfriends/wives/children that hang but it was a special day for the first game, so it was jam packed with club officials and the owners and stuff I was so busy trying to take in all the famous faces that surrounded me then the bell sounded to signify the beginning of the game...
It began with the Australian anthem all the players looking extremely reverent, it was hard to imagine in just mere minutes both teams would begin to play as hard as possible to win. To be honest looking at Nathan on the field was mesmerizing, he looked so in control and his team was listening to him, he got tackled a couple of times I have never felt so protective over someone, we obviously still needed to talk about our fight but I finally realised how important this boy was to me and how hard it was to watch someone you love being beaten down (even if he was getting up seconds later ready for round 2).
“So are you ok?” I asked Jake carefully; ever since we got to the stadium he was in a terrible mood.
“Hmmm, just a little weird with mum.” He answered watching the field with serious concentration.
“Wanna talk about it?” I asked as casually as I could muster, he shook his head and gave me an affectionate pat on the back.
About half an hour after the game ended the boys came out into the VIP area, the temporary walls were removed and the space became huge, waiters appeared and the music started playing. Nathan came over to our little group; we were being a little anti-social only because every time Georgie, Chelsea or me saw someone even mildly famous we’d let out a little squeal and ‘subtly’ point them out.
Nathans arms were soon wrapping themselves around me from behind, I turned around and he pulled me close,
“Thank you.” Was all he whispered in my ear, cue extremely weak knees I didn’t care that his family was watching at that point, I gave him a congratulations kiss, he looked extremely delighted.
“GOOD GAME!” Chelsea and Georgie screamed together and wrapped in up in a group hug, Jake, Brad and Matt gave him a pat on the back, Belle gave him a kiss on the cheek, Lesley wrapped him up in big hug, then it was time for Martine they awkwardly hugged, obviously there was still some tension between them.
“Ok so we’re going to take you all out for dinner, I know you probably want to go out later Nathan with the boys but can we just have you for dinner?” Lesley asked Brad’s arm tight around her waist.
“I would love to come out for dinner, we just have to stay here for a bit longer, they are going to have some speeches and junk and then I’m free.” Nathan smiled in my direction.
“Good, good...” Brad added his face lit up when he saw any of the players; it was obvious his fantasy was coming true.
I realised it was probably time for me to leave, I was only there to support Nathan, we still needed to talk, I wasn’t prepared to just let this issue get swept under the rug.
“Ok guys, I think I better go.” I smiled, instantly Martine looked relieved.
I was met with lots of protests from Lesley, Brad, Georgie, Chelsea, Belle and Matt (Who only arrived just before the game started). Nathan just watched me, as I gave everyone hugs with promises to see them all for breakfasts tomorrow...Nathan grabbed my hand and led me outside.
“Are you sure you don’t want to come for dinner?” He asked as we found a little corner hidden away.
“No, I mean I want to but I shouldn’t, but babe I’m really proud of you.” I said.
“I didn’t mean what I said you know, I just got on the defence, and I was a complete ass.” He said.
“You weren’t the only ass in the room, I shouldn’t have brought up your family stuff, I had absolutely no right.” I said looking down; his finger gently pushed my chin so we were eye level.
“I’m not going to lie it was hard to hear, but you were completely right. I -,” he was cut off, a couple of his teammates practically tackling him to the ground and pushing him inside, he managed a quick kiss and a promise to call me later before they literally picked him up and dragged him inside.
As soon as I walked up with Chelsea, Jake and Georgie (Belle and Matt took a little longer to get ready, they were meeting us later) awkwardness filled the air.
“Hello everyone, I didn’t think you were coming Paris.” Martine said.
“Nope, Nathan called me this morning, I changed my plans.” I said and suddenly Lesley wrapped me up in a tight hug.
“You look beautiful Paris, I’m so glad you made it.”She said genuinely.
“Chelsea what’s wrong you look sick my dear.” Lesley said as she enveloped her, Martine stood up for the side watching the scene play out in front of her.
“Bit of a hangover is all.” She laughed.
“Really Chelsea? It’s your brother’s big day you shouldn’t have been selfish.” Martine chimed in.
“Mum you know Nathans had heaps of big days, I had a good night with everyone.”
“Hmm well I just think perhaps you could have been a little bit more sensitive, you know how nervous he gets.” She said.
“Well I’m bloody well here aren’t I?” She said quickly and falling back in line with me Georgie and Jake, he still had barely acknowledged his mothers presence.
“Now Georgie you’ve done something different with your hair?” Lesley asked fingering Georgie lighter locks.
“Yeah I have, it’s a nice change.” She replied.
“Hmm blonde is a lot of maintenance.” Martine again chimed in; she was even more negative than normal.
“Well I think it looks lovely, we going in?” I interrupted and linked arms with Georgie as we led everyone into the stadium.
Suddenly I became aware of somebody snapping pictures of me.
“What is he doing?” I asked Georgie.
“Welcome to a wag world.” The man snapping the pictures said as he winked
and started backing away.
“What the hell was that?” Chelsea said as she ran up behind me.
“Some pap wanted a photo of Paris.” Georgie laughed.
“Eww, I don’t want a photo of me! I’m SO not a wag, why do people keep saying that to me!” I moaned.
“Well maybe you should have thought about not wanting the wag status before you started dating a football player.” Martine added from behind.
“But then we wouldn’t have her lovely company.” Lesley added gosh she was good at turning a negative comment into a positive.
Soon we were all wedged into the seats in the VIP stand, well not wedged I’m not going to lie the seats were lovely, we were in the important area. The stadium took my breath away, I hadn’t been to a football game in a VERY long time, the sun beat down and there were soooo many people! All had different team jerseys, and people were milling around attempting to find their seats. The VIP apparently usually just housed girlfriends/wives/children that hang but it was a special day for the first game, so it was jam packed with club officials and the owners and stuff I was so busy trying to take in all the famous faces that surrounded me then the bell sounded to signify the beginning of the game...
It began with the Australian anthem all the players looking extremely reverent, it was hard to imagine in just mere minutes both teams would begin to play as hard as possible to win. To be honest looking at Nathan on the field was mesmerizing, he looked so in control and his team was listening to him, he got tackled a couple of times I have never felt so protective over someone, we obviously still needed to talk about our fight but I finally realised how important this boy was to me and how hard it was to watch someone you love being beaten down (even if he was getting up seconds later ready for round 2).
“So are you ok?” I asked Jake carefully; ever since we got to the stadium he was in a terrible mood.
“Hmmm, just a little weird with mum.” He answered watching the field with serious concentration.
“Wanna talk about it?” I asked as casually as I could muster, he shook his head and gave me an affectionate pat on the back.
About half an hour after the game ended the boys came out into the VIP area, the temporary walls were removed and the space became huge, waiters appeared and the music started playing. Nathan came over to our little group; we were being a little anti-social only because every time Georgie, Chelsea or me saw someone even mildly famous we’d let out a little squeal and ‘subtly’ point them out.
Nathans arms were soon wrapping themselves around me from behind, I turned around and he pulled me close,
“Thank you.” Was all he whispered in my ear, cue extremely weak knees I didn’t care that his family was watching at that point, I gave him a congratulations kiss, he looked extremely delighted.
“GOOD GAME!” Chelsea and Georgie screamed together and wrapped in up in a group hug, Jake, Brad and Matt gave him a pat on the back, Belle gave him a kiss on the cheek, Lesley wrapped him up in big hug, then it was time for Martine they awkwardly hugged, obviously there was still some tension between them.
“Ok so we’re going to take you all out for dinner, I know you probably want to go out later Nathan with the boys but can we just have you for dinner?” Lesley asked Brad’s arm tight around her waist.
“I would love to come out for dinner, we just have to stay here for a bit longer, they are going to have some speeches and junk and then I’m free.” Nathan smiled in my direction.
“Good, good...” Brad added his face lit up when he saw any of the players; it was obvious his fantasy was coming true.
I realised it was probably time for me to leave, I was only there to support Nathan, we still needed to talk, I wasn’t prepared to just let this issue get swept under the rug.
“Ok guys, I think I better go.” I smiled, instantly Martine looked relieved.
I was met with lots of protests from Lesley, Brad, Georgie, Chelsea, Belle and Matt (Who only arrived just before the game started). Nathan just watched me, as I gave everyone hugs with promises to see them all for breakfasts tomorrow...Nathan grabbed my hand and led me outside.
“Are you sure you don’t want to come for dinner?” He asked as we found a little corner hidden away.
“No, I mean I want to but I shouldn’t, but babe I’m really proud of you.” I said.
“I didn’t mean what I said you know, I just got on the defence, and I was a complete ass.” He said.
“You weren’t the only ass in the room, I shouldn’t have brought up your family stuff, I had absolutely no right.” I said looking down; his finger gently pushed my chin so we were eye level.
“I’m not going to lie it was hard to hear, but you were completely right. I -,” he was cut off, a couple of his teammates practically tackling him to the ground and pushing him inside, he managed a quick kiss and a promise to call me later before they literally picked him up and dragged him inside.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Game Day
So Nathan also failed to mention his entire family was coming up to Sydney to watch his game, Georgie and I cleaned out the spare room but most of them were staying at Nathans and Danny’s because they are at the hotel anyway club rules apparently, of course I know all of this because of Georgie, Nathan and I still haven’t talked, so we managed to get Jake, Chelsea, Belle and Matt, we have like no room in our apartment for everyone but we are surviving, Nathans place had Martine (argh), West, Lesley and Brad, apparently there all going out for dinner after the game, I was asked by several people to go (just not by Nathan), so I had told them all politely that I already had plans. Georgie decided we all were going out on Friday, seeing as Nathan and Danny were already at the hotel, the older people were happy to stay in but we all went for dinner and then to a club.
We got to Mishca (club) around 11pm, it was awesome, the bar was the theme of the 70’s like an old diner, but everything else looked fairly modern, it looked so out of place that it was cool.
“So what did my brother do now?” Chelsea asked whispering in my ear over the loud music.
“haha it wasn’t just him that did things.” I whispered back.
“Hmm, ok anyway, how’s work?” She asked taking a sip of her cocktail.
“Yeah pretty good, I’m actually being sent to Paris sometime between Christmas and New Year for about three months!” I said excitedly.
“That’s awesome, congratulations!” She smiled and ordered a round of drinks on her.
Jake came and sat next to me a while later,
“So why aren’t you coming tomorrow, real reason?” He asked taking a swig of beer.
I sighed loudly before explaining, “He didn’t tell me about it, and when he did he said he doesn’t want me to come.”
“Ouch.” Jake added.
I shrugged my shoulders, “That wasn’t even what the fight was about, it was about communication.” I said using ginger quotes.
“Oh the Ye Old communication battle, Nate’s not one exactly an open person a lot of the time.” Jake said.
“Hmm I’m just trying not to think about it, it just sucks.” I said and
Jake pulled me in for a quick hug.
Then we all decided just to dance, well it was mostly me, Chelsea and Belle, we had a little too much to drink, ok a lot to much to drink...We were dancing for a solid hour without a break, every time a guy got a little close to us Matt (Belle’s husband) came over and made it clear she wasn’t available without being rude. Belle told Chelsea and me all about her Tahiti honeymoon, it sounded amazing, they swam and ate and generally had an amazing time together, she didn’t fail to mention the copious amounts of sex that they were having (STILL) either...
Just after 2am Georgie coaxed me, Chelsea and Belle into a taxi and the boys followed in one of their own.
“PARIS, pleasssse come to the game tomorrow.” Chelsea slurred.
“I want to, I really do but I can’t.” I replied also slurring.
“You and Nathan are good together, I like you Paris.” She said with drunken affection.
“Chelsea I like you too!” I said as she hugged me.
We all fell into bed, somehow Chelsea and I ended up sharing my bed, everyone woke up about 9am, kick off was 2pm but they were planning to get there about 12 which is apparently pretty standard for the first game of the season, I however was moping around the apartment feeling sorry for myself and trying not to vomit.
“Are you sure you can’t come?” Jake asked me once more as we were eating breakfast.
I shook my head to afraid to open my mouth in case I puked.
“He’d love it if you were there.” Matt added.
“No he wouldn’t, see he actually invited you guys, I was told three days ago by Danny...he doesn’t want me there and if he doesn’t want me there I don’t want to be there.” I said getting up and cleaning the kitchen from the breakfast mess, I could hear their conversation that ensured after I left.
“He is such a freakin’ idiot sometimes.” Belle muttered loudly.
“I know, he finally gets a nice girl, and he is going to fuck it up.” Chelsea said.
“I’ll chat to him tonight.” Jake added.
Suddenly then Florence and the Machines blasted through my phone, it was Nathans personal ringtone, after the wedding we had changed it, it was like our own sexy inside joke.
I walked into the bathroom and shut the door; I answered the phone on the third ring,
“Hello?” I answered.
“Paris, hey.” Nate answered there were loud voices booming out of the background.
Then it got a little awkward, both of us didn’t know what to say, I figured if he called me he’d have some sort of script to follow, like us woman when we call a boyfriend after a fight.
“Good luck today Nate.” I said quietly.
“Argh...I know we have to talk about our stupid fight, but I really need you to be here today, I know I’m a massive ass, but I really, really need
to know your here.” He practically begged, he sounded really nervous...
“Nathan I -,” I started to say but I was cut off.
“Please Paris? Please?” He begged and my eyes filled with tears at the sound of his desperation.
“Ok, I’ll be there.” I said.
He breathed a loud sigh of relief, “Thank you and I promise we can talk after the game.”
We finished the conversation then, so it looks like I’m going to the football. Sigh.
We got to Mishca (club) around 11pm, it was awesome, the bar was the theme of the 70’s like an old diner, but everything else looked fairly modern, it looked so out of place that it was cool.
“So what did my brother do now?” Chelsea asked whispering in my ear over the loud music.
“haha it wasn’t just him that did things.” I whispered back.
“Hmm, ok anyway, how’s work?” She asked taking a sip of her cocktail.
“Yeah pretty good, I’m actually being sent to Paris sometime between Christmas and New Year for about three months!” I said excitedly.
“That’s awesome, congratulations!” She smiled and ordered a round of drinks on her.
Jake came and sat next to me a while later,
“So why aren’t you coming tomorrow, real reason?” He asked taking a swig of beer.
I sighed loudly before explaining, “He didn’t tell me about it, and when he did he said he doesn’t want me to come.”
“Ouch.” Jake added.
I shrugged my shoulders, “That wasn’t even what the fight was about, it was about communication.” I said using ginger quotes.
“Oh the Ye Old communication battle, Nate’s not one exactly an open person a lot of the time.” Jake said.
“Hmm I’m just trying not to think about it, it just sucks.” I said and
Jake pulled me in for a quick hug.
Then we all decided just to dance, well it was mostly me, Chelsea and Belle, we had a little too much to drink, ok a lot to much to drink...We were dancing for a solid hour without a break, every time a guy got a little close to us Matt (Belle’s husband) came over and made it clear she wasn’t available without being rude. Belle told Chelsea and me all about her Tahiti honeymoon, it sounded amazing, they swam and ate and generally had an amazing time together, she didn’t fail to mention the copious amounts of sex that they were having (STILL) either...
Just after 2am Georgie coaxed me, Chelsea and Belle into a taxi and the boys followed in one of their own.
“PARIS, pleasssse come to the game tomorrow.” Chelsea slurred.
“I want to, I really do but I can’t.” I replied also slurring.
“You and Nathan are good together, I like you Paris.” She said with drunken affection.
“Chelsea I like you too!” I said as she hugged me.
We all fell into bed, somehow Chelsea and I ended up sharing my bed, everyone woke up about 9am, kick off was 2pm but they were planning to get there about 12 which is apparently pretty standard for the first game of the season, I however was moping around the apartment feeling sorry for myself and trying not to vomit.
“Are you sure you can’t come?” Jake asked me once more as we were eating breakfast.
I shook my head to afraid to open my mouth in case I puked.
“He’d love it if you were there.” Matt added.
“No he wouldn’t, see he actually invited you guys, I was told three days ago by Danny...he doesn’t want me there and if he doesn’t want me there I don’t want to be there.” I said getting up and cleaning the kitchen from the breakfast mess, I could hear their conversation that ensured after I left.
“He is such a freakin’ idiot sometimes.” Belle muttered loudly.
“I know, he finally gets a nice girl, and he is going to fuck it up.” Chelsea said.
“I’ll chat to him tonight.” Jake added.
Suddenly then Florence and the Machines blasted through my phone, it was Nathans personal ringtone, after the wedding we had changed it, it was like our own sexy inside joke.
I walked into the bathroom and shut the door; I answered the phone on the third ring,
“Hello?” I answered.
“Paris, hey.” Nate answered there were loud voices booming out of the background.
Then it got a little awkward, both of us didn’t know what to say, I figured if he called me he’d have some sort of script to follow, like us woman when we call a boyfriend after a fight.
“Good luck today Nate.” I said quietly.
“Argh...I know we have to talk about our stupid fight, but I really need you to be here today, I know I’m a massive ass, but I really, really need
to know your here.” He practically begged, he sounded really nervous...
“Nathan I -,” I started to say but I was cut off.
“Please Paris? Please?” He begged and my eyes filled with tears at the sound of his desperation.
“Ok, I’ll be there.” I said.
He breathed a loud sigh of relief, “Thank you and I promise we can talk after the game.”
We finished the conversation then, so it looks like I’m going to the football. Sigh.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Flight or Fight?
“So have your gotten tickets to the game yet?”Danny asked me and Nate gave him very wide eyes.
“Arrr no, was I supposed to?” I asked confused, my eyes flicked between Danny and Nathan.
“Well the first game is on Saturday, so yeah you probably should.” Danny said finally realising the tension that was developing between Nathan and me.
Nathan, Danny, Georgie and I were having a celebratory dinner over our new roommate situations; we ordered Chinese and were just sitting in front of the TV waiting for the movie we ordered to start.
“Uh well I didn’t know about it so obviously I’m not welcome.” I said a little harshly, Danny was giving Nathan an ‘I’m sorry dude’ look. I got up and dumped my plate in the sink, a little childish I know. But why didn’t Nate want me there?
There was awkward whispers coming from the living room, I could hear Georgie getting angry at him in hushed tones and he was trying to explain himself in exactly the same manner, she wouldn’t let him get a word in...
I walked into Nate’s room to finish packing up my things. Nathan walked in soon after and shut the door behind him.
“Paris I’m sorry I didn’t tell you.” He said.
“Seriously Nathan, you NEVER communicate ANYTHING.” I said.
“I didn’t know how to tell you.” He said looking down.
“What, you didn’t know how to tell me you don’t want your girlfriend of three months at your first game? Well don’t worry too much your friend did it for you, like your sister told me that you were in Melbourne and your cousin told me about you growing with your aunt...there’s a lot of things that your don’t mention Nate.” I said angrily, trying to keep my voice level, I know it was a low blow about his family stuff but I was angry, and we really hadn’t communicated with each other very well lately.
“Really Paris you want to bring up things I’ve done wrong? Ok let’s get out your laundry list shall we? Hmm number 1 Brett, I warned you about him and then you’re surprised when he tried to break us up, there was Audrey all the shit she did, and your constant complaining about her...” He was really angry.
“Fuck you.” I said as I made a move to walk out of his room.
“No come on you said I don’t communicate now is our chance to start.” He said from behind as his hand reached around and shut the door.
“So what you’re sick of my constant complaining?” I yelled.
“I didn’t mean that, I’m just saying we’ve both been wrong.” He justified his voice raised.
“I never said you were the only one at fault...I meant WE both don’t communicate.” My voice still loud but I wasn’t yelling.
“Ok fine, I don’t want you at my first game, happy?” He said harshly.
“Overjoyed.” I said as I gave him a sarcastic smile and walked out to the living room.
“Georgie can we go, or do you want to stay?” I asked as I was gathering up my stuff.
“Nope we can go.” She answered quickly, giving Danny a quick kiss on the cheek and following me.
“See ya Danny.” I said just as Nathan was walking out of his room, his face stormy.
Ok so Nathan and I currently aren’t talking, and obviously I didn’t just want to hear he didn’t want me at his game but why. I really don’t care that he didn’t want me there, he probably has reasons but he WONT talk to my about it, that’s the problem, I would have been happy to sit at home cheering him on in front of the TV, but I want to know WHY I have to? Clearly there are more problems in this relationship then I thought.
“Arrr no, was I supposed to?” I asked confused, my eyes flicked between Danny and Nathan.
“Well the first game is on Saturday, so yeah you probably should.” Danny said finally realising the tension that was developing between Nathan and me.
Nathan, Danny, Georgie and I were having a celebratory dinner over our new roommate situations; we ordered Chinese and were just sitting in front of the TV waiting for the movie we ordered to start.
“Uh well I didn’t know about it so obviously I’m not welcome.” I said a little harshly, Danny was giving Nathan an ‘I’m sorry dude’ look. I got up and dumped my plate in the sink, a little childish I know. But why didn’t Nate want me there?
There was awkward whispers coming from the living room, I could hear Georgie getting angry at him in hushed tones and he was trying to explain himself in exactly the same manner, she wouldn’t let him get a word in...
I walked into Nate’s room to finish packing up my things. Nathan walked in soon after and shut the door behind him.
“Paris I’m sorry I didn’t tell you.” He said.
“Seriously Nathan, you NEVER communicate ANYTHING.” I said.
“I didn’t know how to tell you.” He said looking down.
“What, you didn’t know how to tell me you don’t want your girlfriend of three months at your first game? Well don’t worry too much your friend did it for you, like your sister told me that you were in Melbourne and your cousin told me about you growing with your aunt...there’s a lot of things that your don’t mention Nate.” I said angrily, trying to keep my voice level, I know it was a low blow about his family stuff but I was angry, and we really hadn’t communicated with each other very well lately.
“Really Paris you want to bring up things I’ve done wrong? Ok let’s get out your laundry list shall we? Hmm number 1 Brett, I warned you about him and then you’re surprised when he tried to break us up, there was Audrey all the shit she did, and your constant complaining about her...” He was really angry.
“Fuck you.” I said as I made a move to walk out of his room.
“No come on you said I don’t communicate now is our chance to start.” He said from behind as his hand reached around and shut the door.
“So what you’re sick of my constant complaining?” I yelled.
“I didn’t mean that, I’m just saying we’ve both been wrong.” He justified his voice raised.
“I never said you were the only one at fault...I meant WE both don’t communicate.” My voice still loud but I wasn’t yelling.
“Ok fine, I don’t want you at my first game, happy?” He said harshly.
“Overjoyed.” I said as I gave him a sarcastic smile and walked out to the living room.
“Georgie can we go, or do you want to stay?” I asked as I was gathering up my stuff.
“Nope we can go.” She answered quickly, giving Danny a quick kiss on the cheek and following me.
“See ya Danny.” I said just as Nathan was walking out of his room, his face stormy.
Ok so Nathan and I currently aren’t talking, and obviously I didn’t just want to hear he didn’t want me at his game but why. I really don’t care that he didn’t want me there, he probably has reasons but he WONT talk to my about it, that’s the problem, I would have been happy to sit at home cheering him on in front of the TV, but I want to know WHY I have to? Clearly there are more problems in this relationship then I thought.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Serious Sweetness
“Hmm I’m going to miss waking up next to you like this.” Nathan said, he was spooning me and being all cute and sweet this morning.
“It’s ok; you’d get sick of me anyway.” I said.
“Unlikely.” He whispered into my ear, and his hands travelled up to my thigh, so that’s why he was being so sweet.
“No, no, no mister, no sex today.” I said pulling his hand away.
“What, come on?” He said.
“Nope, I scream like a banshee apparently, so no sex until Danny’s not here, and your both getting up to go to training anyway...”
“Come on he was kidding...” Nate said as he was nibbling my neck and again his hand travelled up my thigh.
“Stop please.” My voice cracked and came out more like a moan, which Nathan took as a positive sign.
“Nathan.” I said feebly trying to stop him.
I gave up he was going to win anyway...;)
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“The place is absolutely gorgeous.” I said as soon as I stepped into Georgie’s apartment.
As I suspected when I first saw the outside, it was very sex and the city, it was way more understated then my Audrey’s apartment, no door man or gym but it was lovely. It was still close to my work and public transport was nearby. I’ll try to give a bit of a verbal tour, you walk into the front door (red...soooo cute) and there a very short hallway and a very small entrance way with this lovely glass table with a beautiful vase, anyway you walk a little further up and the kitchen is on the left, and on the right is a big living area, and a very large window with a little seat under it. Upstairs there are three bedrooms, two were the same size and the third was significantly smaller, Georgie showed me my room, her bedroom has its own bathroom so I get mine own as well.
“So do you want to be my roommate?” Georgie asked after she had given me a tour and we were sitting down having a coffee in her modern kitchen.
“I would love to move into your apartment.” I said excitedly.
“Our apartment.” She corrected, ahhh she’s a sweetie.
“Ohh...so do you want to lay down any ground rules?” I asked.
“Uhhh nope...You?” She asked.
“Nope! Yay we’re going to be roommates!” I squealed!
“Well you can move yourself in whenever!” She said.
Then we just talked about formalities, when the rents due, the bond, the
bills all that jazz! I’m really excited about living with Georgie, she is so easy to get along with, and I need someone that I can have fun with especially after not only losing a roommate but one of my best friends.
“It’s ok; you’d get sick of me anyway.” I said.
“Unlikely.” He whispered into my ear, and his hands travelled up to my thigh, so that’s why he was being so sweet.
“No, no, no mister, no sex today.” I said pulling his hand away.
“What, come on?” He said.
“Nope, I scream like a banshee apparently, so no sex until Danny’s not here, and your both getting up to go to training anyway...”
“Come on he was kidding...” Nate said as he was nibbling my neck and again his hand travelled up my thigh.
“Stop please.” My voice cracked and came out more like a moan, which Nathan took as a positive sign.
“Nathan.” I said feebly trying to stop him.
I gave up he was going to win anyway...;)
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“The place is absolutely gorgeous.” I said as soon as I stepped into Georgie’s apartment.
As I suspected when I first saw the outside, it was very sex and the city, it was way more understated then my Audrey’s apartment, no door man or gym but it was lovely. It was still close to my work and public transport was nearby. I’ll try to give a bit of a verbal tour, you walk into the front door (red...soooo cute) and there a very short hallway and a very small entrance way with this lovely glass table with a beautiful vase, anyway you walk a little further up and the kitchen is on the left, and on the right is a big living area, and a very large window with a little seat under it. Upstairs there are three bedrooms, two were the same size and the third was significantly smaller, Georgie showed me my room, her bedroom has its own bathroom so I get mine own as well.
“So do you want to be my roommate?” Georgie asked after she had given me a tour and we were sitting down having a coffee in her modern kitchen.
“I would love to move into your apartment.” I said excitedly.
“Our apartment.” She corrected, ahhh she’s a sweetie.
“Ohh...so do you want to lay down any ground rules?” I asked.
“Uhhh nope...You?” She asked.
“Nope! Yay we’re going to be roommates!” I squealed!
“Well you can move yourself in whenever!” She said.
Then we just talked about formalities, when the rents due, the bond, the
bills all that jazz! I’m really excited about living with Georgie, she is so easy to get along with, and I need someone that I can have fun with especially after not only losing a roommate but one of my best friends.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Moving On
I stayed at Nate’s tonight, we were an extremely ‘coupley’ and ‘disgusting’ according to Danny, we also invited Georgie invited for dinner, Nate and I hadn’t both hadn’t seen her for ages.
“GEORGIE!” I yelled as I opened Nathans front door.
“PARIS!” She yelled back, she looked flippin’ hot, and I was about to find out why.
“You look really hot.” I said as she handed me some champagne and kissed my cheek.
“Thank you, you’re not looking to bad yourself.”She was just being nice, my hair was a mess, as was my face and I was really close to giving up completely and chucking on trackies.
“Haha, thank you.”I smiled.
We walked through to the kitchen we’re Nate was cooking a delicious stir-fry, god he looked so sexy when he cooked, he was all in control and his cheeks were a little red from the heat and arrgh he looked freakin hot.
“Hey.” Georgie said as she put her bag down on the counter.
“Hey.” Danny and Nate said in unison, Danny was sitting on the couch flicking channels and barely looked up.
Georgie went and sat next to Danny, when he finally looked at her, his eyes were wide with shock at her appearance; she was obviously smitten with him, that’s why she looked so good tonight.
I wrapped my arms around Nathans back while he was fiddling at the stove.
“Hmm baby that smells awesome.” I said.
“Thank you, this is kind of cool don’t you think?” He asked.
“What?” I asked running my hand up and down his toned stomach under his shirt.
“Us hanging out, cooking together, having people over for dinner, it’s awesome.” He said as he spun around.
“It is nice...wanna know a secret?” I asked.
“Hmm?” Nathan said as he pulled me even closer and kissed my nose.
“I kind of like you.” I said kissing him.
“...You go alright too.” He smiled and turned around to stir the dinner.
Danny and Georgie were laughing about something and his body was completely turned toward her, she was loving the attention, I had read enough magazines (and wrote enough articles) to know that they had some serious chemistry. Nathan dished up the food soon after and we all chatted easily.
“So why is there tonnes of boxes piled up in the hallway, I thought you got most of your stuff moved in Danny...” Georgie said as she gracefully ate some noodles.
“Not mine its all Paris’ junk.” Danny said nodding towards me.
“What? Why?” Georgie asked.
“She got kicked out...” Nate added close to laughing.
“Shut up Nate, yeah Audrey and I got in a fight, and she told me to get out of her apartment.” I said snuggling up to Nate.
“O-M-G, where are you going to live? What the hell, she’s such a bitch.” Georgie said angrily.
“I have no idea, I looked at a place today but Nathan didn’t like it.” I said rolling my eyes.
“Because it was in the worst neighbourhood ever, and the owner looked like a drug lord...” Nathan said.
“He was fine, just a little handsy.” I said to Georgie, I could see her face ticking over but I had no idea why.
“So what’s everyone else’s news?” I asked.
“Paris, you should move in with me.” Georgie asked bluntly.
Nathans face was the pinnacle of confusion at that point.
“Uh are you serious?” I asked.
“Yes, remember agessss ago I said I needed a roommate and you’d be perfect, seriously you’re clean and nice, and you won’t be bringing home random guys...” She pondered out loud.
“Damn right she won’t be bringing home random guys, I think it’s a pretty good idea.” Nate added smiling at me.
“Are you sure?” I asked.
“YES! It would be awesome, argh! You should come by and see the place, see if you like it and you can decide.” She said.
“That would be really cool! Thank you so much Georgie! Imagine if we live together, we’d have sooo much fun!” I laughed.
“Ok come over tomorrow, after work.” She said.
“Finally, I don’t have to listen to your guys having nightly sex marathons.” Danny interjected.
I went bright red and Nathan just shook his head chuckling, I hit him playfully still not looking at Danny.
“Argh you’ve made her all embarrassed Danny.” Georgie said lightly.
“Oh Paris I’m sorry, but if you’re going to scream like a banshee then I have a right to tease you.” Danny said.
“Shut up, I don’t scream like a banshee, your such an ass.” I laughed.
“Oh really, I could quote quite a few lines I heard last night, ‘Nathan you so-,” He said before I cut him off.
“Shut up, shut up, shut up!” I yelled playfully getting up from the table and making my way to the kitchen.
“Ok, I’m sorry.” Danny said he said putting his hands up in mock surrender.
Nathan was laughing out our little exchange, I think the only reason he found it so hilarious was his friend now knows what a sex god he is...
“GEORGIE!” I yelled as I opened Nathans front door.
“PARIS!” She yelled back, she looked flippin’ hot, and I was about to find out why.
“You look really hot.” I said as she handed me some champagne and kissed my cheek.
“Thank you, you’re not looking to bad yourself.”She was just being nice, my hair was a mess, as was my face and I was really close to giving up completely and chucking on trackies.
“Haha, thank you.”I smiled.
We walked through to the kitchen we’re Nate was cooking a delicious stir-fry, god he looked so sexy when he cooked, he was all in control and his cheeks were a little red from the heat and arrgh he looked freakin hot.
“Hey.” Georgie said as she put her bag down on the counter.
“Hey.” Danny and Nate said in unison, Danny was sitting on the couch flicking channels and barely looked up.
Georgie went and sat next to Danny, when he finally looked at her, his eyes were wide with shock at her appearance; she was obviously smitten with him, that’s why she looked so good tonight.
I wrapped my arms around Nathans back while he was fiddling at the stove.
“Hmm baby that smells awesome.” I said.
“Thank you, this is kind of cool don’t you think?” He asked.
“What?” I asked running my hand up and down his toned stomach under his shirt.
“Us hanging out, cooking together, having people over for dinner, it’s awesome.” He said as he spun around.
“It is nice...wanna know a secret?” I asked.
“Hmm?” Nathan said as he pulled me even closer and kissed my nose.
“I kind of like you.” I said kissing him.
“...You go alright too.” He smiled and turned around to stir the dinner.
Danny and Georgie were laughing about something and his body was completely turned toward her, she was loving the attention, I had read enough magazines (and wrote enough articles) to know that they had some serious chemistry. Nathan dished up the food soon after and we all chatted easily.
“So why is there tonnes of boxes piled up in the hallway, I thought you got most of your stuff moved in Danny...” Georgie said as she gracefully ate some noodles.
“Not mine its all Paris’ junk.” Danny said nodding towards me.
“What? Why?” Georgie asked.
“She got kicked out...” Nate added close to laughing.
“Shut up Nate, yeah Audrey and I got in a fight, and she told me to get out of her apartment.” I said snuggling up to Nate.
“O-M-G, where are you going to live? What the hell, she’s such a bitch.” Georgie said angrily.
“I have no idea, I looked at a place today but Nathan didn’t like it.” I said rolling my eyes.
“Because it was in the worst neighbourhood ever, and the owner looked like a drug lord...” Nathan said.
“He was fine, just a little handsy.” I said to Georgie, I could see her face ticking over but I had no idea why.
“So what’s everyone else’s news?” I asked.
“Paris, you should move in with me.” Georgie asked bluntly.
Nathans face was the pinnacle of confusion at that point.
“Uh are you serious?” I asked.
“Yes, remember agessss ago I said I needed a roommate and you’d be perfect, seriously you’re clean and nice, and you won’t be bringing home random guys...” She pondered out loud.
“Damn right she won’t be bringing home random guys, I think it’s a pretty good idea.” Nate added smiling at me.
“Are you sure?” I asked.
“YES! It would be awesome, argh! You should come by and see the place, see if you like it and you can decide.” She said.
“That would be really cool! Thank you so much Georgie! Imagine if we live together, we’d have sooo much fun!” I laughed.
“Ok come over tomorrow, after work.” She said.
“Finally, I don’t have to listen to your guys having nightly sex marathons.” Danny interjected.
I went bright red and Nathan just shook his head chuckling, I hit him playfully still not looking at Danny.
“Argh you’ve made her all embarrassed Danny.” Georgie said lightly.
“Oh Paris I’m sorry, but if you’re going to scream like a banshee then I have a right to tease you.” Danny said.
“Shut up, I don’t scream like a banshee, your such an ass.” I laughed.
“Oh really, I could quote quite a few lines I heard last night, ‘Nathan you so-,” He said before I cut him off.
“Shut up, shut up, shut up!” I yelled playfully getting up from the table and making my way to the kitchen.
“Ok, I’m sorry.” Danny said he said putting his hands up in mock surrender.
Nathan was laughing out our little exchange, I think the only reason he found it so hilarious was his friend now knows what a sex god he is...
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